Terri Aggro      Mansfield, Nottinghamshire

Her Doll, Mary

A hammering terror. Getting closer, the clatter of metal on metal. Throbbing, steel-throated voices pounding through the trees. Up the hill they come until they have the house of the Witnesses surrounded.

The family are hiding beneath the kitchen table. Mother holds her daughter tight in her arms. In turn, Little Jes grips her doll. She whispers, ‘Shush, Mary, shush. The bad men will hear you. You don’t want the bad men to hear you.’

The bad men begin to chant in unison, ‘Blasphemers! Blasphemers!’ Each syllable is accompanied by their tools, pummelling the outer walls. Windows are smashed. The decapitated head of a goat is thrown into the room.

Little Jes turns Mary’s face the other way. She remembers when the doll once lost its head. Two of the yard dogs had fought over it and between them had ripped the head right off. Lots of the cotton insides had been torn loose. Mother had re-stuffed Mary with straw and had sown her head back on, but the wrong way round. This hadn’t bothered Little Jes. Even with a back to front head, Mary was still precious in her sight.

Father has locked all the doors but the bad men don’t force them anyway. Instead, they begin barricading the doors and windows with planks of wood, clobbering them to the house with thick, iron nails.

Mother begins to cry. She sobs into Father’s chest. Little Jes bends the doll’s knees and holds her hands together. She tells her, ‘Pray for us, Mary. Pray for us in our need. Pray that the bad men will go away.’ Little Jes closes her own eyes so that Mary will do the same with her one remaining button-eye. Little Jes used to suck the eyes for comfort and had once swallowed one. Lost inside her, it was never found.

And now the reek of petrol and the whoosh of flames. Almost instantaneously, tongues of fire start licking the inside of the room. Smoke starts to breathe from between every crack and crevice. The bad men’s voices recede into the distance as the inferno takes hold and increases.

The family races from room to room looking for an escape but every access has been blocked. Father goes back into the kitchen and returns with the slaughtering cleaver. He begins to hack at the makeshift larder which was recently replaced after the latest winds. But the flames, furious in their intensity, force him back.

The only place left is the storm cellar. They clamber in and Father closes the wooden flap behind him. They huddle in total darkness. Little Jes still has Mary in her firm grasp. She runs her hands up and down the doll’s body and settles at her shoes. Little Jes had once accidentally dropped Mary into the hearth when they were toasting marshmallows together. When she had rescued the doll, her boots had melted and become blistered. The once shiny, pretty boots were completely blackened; incinerated beyond repair.

Lena Merman

Preston, Lancashire

 

 

The Girl In The White Bikini

 

He had been watching her for hours. Her white bikini scantily covered her modesty. The sweat on his forehead glistened in the sun causing drops to create rivulets of moisture that cascaded down his face. He shifted his weight on the bench and looked down as he felt pins and needles spread from his toes to his ankle.
He felt a sense of physical pain and panic when he couldn’t immediately see her.

She had gone. Slowly he got up to his feet and stumbled forwards.
 “Are you ok?” A cool hand clutched his bare arm, “You need to sit back down.”
To his delight the bikini-clad girl sat down next to him.

He put his hand on top of hers and she showed no impulse to pull away. She smiled, “I really fancy a moonlight sail later… if you can handle a boat?”
He could not believe his luck. He usually had to spend quite a lot of time and money getting to know them first.

“I’ve got a boat. A sail out at sea in the moonlight is very... stimulating...If you know what I mean,” she winked suggestively and ran her tongue slowly over her lips. He could not swim and the thought of being out in a boat terrified him, but it would be worth it. He pulled himself together. He needed a bath, a shave and to wipe all fingerprints off the blade and handle of the knife. She would be his fifth victim.

She met him on time and quickly grabbed his hand, “Come on big boy!”
“Look, we don’t have to go out on the water. Let’s go under the pier,” he said.
“No way,” She said firmly. “If you want me, you have to get in the inflatable. The waves do things to me.” She smiled seductively, “You’ll be ok with me.”

After a few minutes in the boat, he changed positions with her and took the oars. After a few strokes he soon began to get into a rhythm. It was a good ten minutes until he looked up away from her breasts to realise that the lights on the pier and the town were twinkling a long way off. He could feel a panic rising in his chest as he abruptly stopped rowing.
She smiled broadly at him; “Yes this is a good a place as any.”

In a flurry of movement, and seemingly from nowhere, she produced a Stanley knife blade and with a graceful sweeping motion, slashed the rubber sides and bottom of the boat as he looked on in silent horror.
“I knew you were watching me on the beach. I don’t like dirty old men who only want one thing! You remind me of my step-father before I sorted him out as well!”

He sank like a stone before he could scream.

She leisurely began swimming towards the lights. Back to hunt for the next one. 

 

Melmoth


Whitby, North Yorkshire 

Lambs’ Tail Stew

Hard times, especially for a casual hand like myself. Walking in all weathers from one isolated farm to another. Sleeping beneath the stars or, if I’m lucky, in a sheep shelter or a gravedigger’s tool shed. A hand to mouth existence. Woodcutting, picking stones off fields, building dry stone walls or pulling tatties and turnips.

Then come spring I find work with a recently widowed farmer’s wife. A tenant farm in the back of beyond. A house full of kids and the lambing season coming on, so she needs an extra hand. I’m fed well enough and sleep in the byre with all the dry comfort that corn straw brings.

The season starts badly. A week of late snow buries many of the pregnant ewes. The widow and I trail the fields together to rescue them. The sheep are dumb with cold and hardly make a sound. We dig with spades until we see an exposed nose or a wagging tail and then use crooks to drag them out by their necks. Often white icicles hang from the wool. The ones frozen stiff are taken back to the farmhouse and provide good meat for everyone.

The weather eventually clears and we are out at all hours keeping an eye on the flock and helping to deliver some of the lambs. The widow teaches me to turn any distressed ewe onto her back, how to put my hand up inside her and to get the front feet forward and gradually ease the lamb out. Any orphaned lamb is taken back to the farmhouse and is bottle-fed by the kids. The widow instructs me how to skin any dead lamb and put the skin on another lamb so that it will be adopted by the deprived mother.

At lamb docking time we cut off the lambs’ tails in order to reduce the risk of fly strike. I have done this before by means of a block, chisel and mallet, but the widow prefers that we use a jack knife. She collects all the tails in a bucket and takes them home to be cooked over the peat fire. After skinning the tails, she adds herbs, onions, barley, peas and a handful of rice. The kids are very excited by the prospect of this once in a year treat. After they have all gone to bed she rewards me with another helping of the stew and a glass or two of damsel wine she made in the autumn. We sit outside together on a pair of stools, listening to the soft bleating and stare at the reddest sky I can ever remember.

Now this summer morning she has me busy in the top field mending the broken gate. I just about have it fixed when she appears. She has four older kids ready for the school bus. A smaller child is holding her hand. Another is in her arms and there, becoming easier to see, is another one inside her.

Eugenie Newton

County Durham, England

 

 

Spirit Of Truth

Jensen, may the Spirit of Truth always be on him, takes me aside and reminds me that I haven’t fed Stockton. With respect, I say, the Beholden is finding it difficult to eat anything. Then place some food on his tongue when he’s sleeping, he says, and pray that he swallows it. Remember, food is Thing. There is no actuality in Thing. Thing is Lapse. Find Lapse in your mind and fight it. Yes, I say, I will. Thank you Jensen, may the Spirit of Truth always be on you. He nods and, with his perfect teeth, flashes me his charismatic smile. There are no wrinkles beside his eyes.

Later, Stockton wakes up coughing. There is foodstuff down his chin and on the bedclothes. I suggest he raise up his head so that he can take some water. He asks, what’s in the water? Only water, I say. Then I shall take a drink, he says. The water obviously brings some relief but he only takes a couple of mouthfuls. Lean in, he says, so I do. He croaks into my ear, a choice must be made between the Spirit of Truth and the Idol in Babylon, do you understand? Yes I do, I tell him. Thank you for your wisdom, Stockton

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Jensen, may the Spirit of Truth always be on him, comes on his round in the evening; his face as tanned as his new shoes. He suggests to Stockton that he make a list of all the times he has successfully fought Lapse and has thus been healed. This will help strengthen you now, he says, in The Conflict. Stockton agrees: I am a Beholden and a Beholden must do so. Stockton makes a terse, breathless effort to dictate to me his past victories. It includes how a teenage face rash had ultimately been defeated before his marriage; how persistent summer coughs had finally left him; and how he had fought off malaria many times when bitten by horse flies.

Eventually Stockton exhausts himself, closes his eyes, returns to the foetal position and places both hands upon his stomach. He is in The Conflict. He flinches and groans but he is a strong Beholden of many years so will feel no pain. Pain is Thing and there is no actuality in Thing.

As I sit in silence beside Stockton’s bed I bring to mind the Great Hanson. How, before his Leaving, eighteen and a half years ago, he had a vision of his eternal self, forever defeating Lapse and casting Thing into oblivion. I pray to the Great Hanson: Oh, return to us from your Leaving, Great Hanson. Help us to exterminate the Idol in Babylon and live forever in the Spirit of Truth. Amen.

Stockton dies during the night. Jensen, may the Spirit of Truth always be on him, is called for. He kisses Stockton on the forehead and whispers go, fly to Hanson. He closes Stockton’s eyes with his long, manicured fingers.

Smith Granger Smith

NYC, USA

 

 

Water Rising

 

My dead grandmother hovers in the air like an unsettled Buddha balloon. Did you point at Devil’s Island? You were told never to point at it. I kick at the sand and shove my hands behind my bum. Well, there’s no point hiding your fingers now. She deflates and swirls into the horizon behind the island. It’s tooo laaate noooow. Waaaarn theee otheeeeers. At first the Devil floats like a logging barge. Then brimstone splits its surface. A lone gnarled tree claws its way up through the smoke and spitting fog, pulls the island towards our shore. Over-sized gulls squawk and waddle until their shit speckles the damp rock. I scramble up the hill to our house. Dad stands there on the step, no worry lines crowding his forehead. The churning water, displaced by the Devil, climbs my pant legs and weighs me down in place. Dad smiles. What’s the matter with you? My words won’t come and I don’t dare point behind me.

 

Louella Lester

 

Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada

https://louellalester.blog

John, Oscar And Me

Sunday league football. The forward and I both jumped together for the ball. I managed to get to it first but his forehead crashed at full force into my left temple. Next thing I knew I was in A&E with the room spinning round. After the x-ray the doctor told me there was no real damage, but there was going to be some swelling. She wasn’t kidding.

By Tuesday I seemed to have grown another head on the side of my own; a bulbous protuberance which displayed all the many hues of purple. In days past I might have found employment in a carnival and earned my meagre keep as part of the freak show. Well, come Wednesday, I did it for free.

There was a union meeting at the welfare. The strike was off. Too much scabbing and hardship. And anyway, the management were willing to do a deal on some of our lesser demands. A show of hands and it was agreed: we’d cut our losses and fight another day. Then, for some light relief, they turned on me.

A pointer shouted, ‘Hey, who invited John Merrick?’ I was encircled by a gang of mockers. ‘Oy, Tom, when did you get the part of Elephant Man?’ Hilarity and then another joker took it further by acting out dialogue from the movie: ’I am not an elephant! I am not an animal! I am a human being! I am a man!’ The more he repeated it the louder the laughter came at my expense.

When I thought about it later I began to feel great empathy for poor John. Oscar Wilde also came to mind; how hell for him was the humiliation he suffered as a prisoner at Clapham Junction and how for a year afterwards he wept every day at the same hour and for the same amount of time.

I didn’t weep but I did spend a lot of the evening staring into the mirror examining my distorted face. At first I was as fascinated by my hideousness as my workmates were, but then I slowly became locked into my own eyes. Windows of the soul, and all that. What was it again? ‘I am not an animal, I am a man!’

The return to work brought trouble. The scabs were given much grief. Spitting, jeering, curses and so on. Working near my machine was a young married man previously known as Whacker but now renamed Bastard. Near the end of the shift, when the line manager disappeared to the toilet, a group of men gathered around him and were really going for it. Unsurprisingly, he began to cry, which only made them go at him harder.

It was at this point that I stepped in. ‘Enough!’ I shouted. ‘For fuck’s sake, that’s enough! Have a heart!’ That stopped them but late on Saturday night in The Social I received another blow to match the one on the other side of my head.

Greg Skelton

Leicester, England

In January, Maybe

Through the Mersey Tunnel and onto Port Sunlight. In the Lady Lever Art Gallery we spot Waterhouse’s ‘The Enchanted Garden’. We have a framed print of it in our bedroom, back home in Doncaster. We learn from the panel that it is based on a story from Boccaccio’s Decameron. Pursued by Ansora, Dianora agrees to become his mistress if he can produce in January a garden with all the flowers and fruits of summer. With the help of a magician, he succeeds, much to her astonishment.

Once outside the three of us walk to the war memorial and rest. My husband lies on the bench and says he doesn’t care what we actually think. A sprightly old lady plants herself down and begins to talk at us. She tells us about her late husband, a fantastically clever English teacher and about her saintly father who once promised her that one day she would be reunited with her beloved dead cat atop a rainbow bridge. She talks about the young Wilfred Owen and how he lived only a short drive away in Birkenhead. Then it’s onto Adolf Hitler and how he once escaped conscription from the Austrian army by sailing to Liverpool to be with his brother Alois.

After our own escape, we head back to my daughter’s digs in Liverpool and my husband crashes on the sofa. So tired from all the driving and cultural overload. While he dozes we check out the Hitler story on our iPhones. Sure enough there are references to it in The Echo. He may have been a bell-boy at The Adelphi where Alois played the violin. He might have enrolled at the art college. He could even have attended Everton’s home games.

To our surprise there is also mention of a rumour that Haile Selassie, the Lion of Judah and Emperor of Ethiopia, spent the years of the Second World War in exile in Liverpool, in Alexandra Drive, which is the very street we’re in. According to local legend, two golden-coloured lion statues marked the house as recently as the 1970s. This thrilling discovery encourages my daughter and me to go on an adventure. We leave my husband to his snoring and go outside for a look.

We stroll up and down the street and eventually stop outside a derelict property. To our excitement we notice there are two identical concrete bases at either side of the rusted gate, certainly large enough to support lion statues. Emboldened by our discovery, we make our way up the cracked path towards the house. There is nothing to see through the broken windows except fallen plaster and fractured floorboards. But what is that, coming from behind the house? It is the sound of music. Stringed music.

Holding hands, we furtively turn the corner. To our amazement there is a small, mustachioed man leaning beside a fountain playing a lute. And all around him are roses, peonies, lilies and a whole array of un-seasonal flowers.

Beryl From The Block

Thwing, East Yorkshire

 

 

Sugar and Spice

Don’t take this personally, but I really don’t like little boys. Never did, never will. Some of them grow up to be okay in the end, I suppose, though I’ve only met a few myself. Most of the blokes I’ve had have turned out bad. Like your dad, he wasn’t up to much, truth be told. Had his bit of fun and then was off like a shot when he heard you were coming along. Good luck finding him, that’s all I can say.

Y’see, when I was growing up I had three brothers and they ruined everything. Any peace in the house was completely wrecked. I just wanted to grow up as a little girl but they wouldn’t leave me and my things alone. Did my head in. And when they got to be teenagers things just got wilder and wilder. Feral, they were. No wonder my mother didn’t last until fifty, poor bugger. So when it came to having my own kids I knew I was only having girls. No ifs or buts. That’s why I gave you up for adoption. Brenda and Graham, you say. Well, I hope they’ve been good parents. It seems like you’ve been well looked after, that’s clear enough.

Like I said before, you’re not the only one. I gave up two other boys. They came after you, if I remember rightly. That left me with our Kayleigh, our Kirsty, our Kristen and our Kacey. It’s been lovely, just the five of us. All girls together. Don’t get me wrong, they have their moments and don’t always get on, but things mostly tick along nicely. Most of them have got different dads who they sometimes see, but not very often. I don’t encourage it. No, best to forget about them, really. Bad lot, in general. Although Craig, that’s our Kirsty’s and our Kristen’s dad, he’s not so bad. He came round at the weekend and gave our Kirsty a tenner for her birthday. Said he’d take them both to McDonald’s next time he’s working in town. Fair do’s.

Anyway, as you can see, I’m eating for two again. Six months now, or thereabouts. Belongs to some fella I got seeing in Benidorm last June. From Newcastle or Glasgow, somewhere northern. I got fined for taking the girls out of school during term time but that’s another story. They’re hoping for another sister but I reckon they’re going to be disappointed. Everything’s telling me it’s going to be a boy. I’ve had terrible morning sickness and look at this acne and how thick my hair is. Sure signs. And I’ve cravings for pickles and crisps, just like I did for you and the other boys. I’ve been gently letting the girls know that the baby might have to go and live with a sad and lonely mam and dad and I think they’re coming round to the idea. But at least it’s another little brother for you. That’s something, isn’t it?

Theo Curtz

Castleford, West Yorkshire

Bless ‘Em All

Next up is the one about my old man who said follow the van but don’t dilly-dally on the way. My wife has passed the tambourine onto me and I’m trying my best to keep a regular rhythm. A lady across the circle is shaking a maraca and she’s got her eagle eyes on my technique, so I’d better not fail.

My wife is holding Vera’s hand and is encouraging her to sing along. We don’t think Vera knows who we are anymore but she seems happy enough with our company and the entertainment. The singer moves onto the one about doing the Lambeth Walk where everything’s free and easy and you can do as you darn well pleasy. One inmate is being very free and easy, happily dancing by herself in a very revealing way.

Arthur has been given an inflatable guitar which he is wielding with much enthusiasm. C’mon Arthur, implores the singer, give it a shake! That’s it Arthur, that’s it! Reggie was tapping his toes but all the excitement has caused him to fall back to sleep. And Brian is wearing the wrong specs. Well, that’s what Phyllis thinks.

Those aren’t Brian’s glasses, she says. Who’s given Brian the wrong glasses? She asks my wife whether she’s given Brian the wrong glasses. Then she turns on me. Do you know why Brian is wearing the wrong glasses? But I am too busy keeping tempo with the one about saying goodbye to Piccadilly and farewell to Leicester Square. When Phyllis gets out of her seat to ask me the same question I begin to think it might be a good thing to leave for Tipperary despite it being a long, long way.

At this point Millie stands up and intervenes. She tells us Brian is not wearing her glasses because she herself is wearing them. Look, varifocals, she says, and each lens cost me fifty pounds which is a hundred pounds altogether. Yes, but Brian is wearing the wrong glasses, says Phyllis. Someone has given Brian the wrong glasses. Why is Brian wearing the wrong glasses?

Eventually Brian is unceremoniously stripped of the glasses which doesn’t seem to bother him very much. My wife examines them and discovers Vera’s name is engraved on one of the inside arms. Problem solved, or so it seemed. Phyllis asks, but whose glasses is Vera wearing? And so the great spectacle mystery resumes. She’s definitely not wearing mine, says Millie. Mine are varifocals and each lens cost me fifty pounds. I say that’s a hundred pounds altogether. She nods and smiles at my understanding.

Vera is re-united with her horn-rimmed glasses and Brian is fitted with the ones Vera was wearing. They are obviously women’s spectacles but Brian doesn’t make any fuss, even though they are a tight fit.

I’m quite enjoying myself today, says my wife. You can stay if you want, I say. But we leave together during the one about meeting again some sunny day.

Geoff Tracey

Otterburn, Northumbria

 

 

Dragon 

 

Through the crack in the door, I could see him squirm; he was terrified.


He was trapped, tied firmly to the chair. His face and mouth were a mass of sores, he struggled against the restraints.


A hand moved toward his face.


“N-nnn-ooo.” A barely audible whisper.


She gently pushed his hair back from his forehead and softly cupped his face in her hands. She was crying as well.


“I’ve tried everything lovey,” she told him. “Now, promise again.”


“I-I-I p-p-promise,” he said


She started to untie the tea towels. She had tied his hands to the back of the chair to stop him from wriggling while she cleaned his face and lips. He’d cried. 


His face and lips were covered in sores and blisters because of the lighter fuel. There had been a circus on the TV, there was a man in tights, blowing flames out of his mouth. We tried it with lighter fuel, he had sucked it in from a red and yellow tin, he blew it out of his mouth as the match was struck, it had gone like a dragon. He didn’t blow hard enough.


She let him stand up.


“Let’s see your tongue,” she said. “Okay, my lovey, no more blisters.”


He put his tongue back in. She let go of his hands, but he didn’t go anywhere.


I went over to where they were.


She gently wiped tears from his eyes, she looked at me and shook her head.


“I still can’t believe it, you stupid boys. One of you could have died.” She said.

 

Mark O'Hara 

 

Melbourne Australia

 

 

Ridiculous

      I flash my phone, the ticket hovers, fruit of a days labor. The black and white mosaic tile paves my way. At the bar I ask for some tap water and I’m told snittily, “We don’t have any. You can buy a bottle of LifeWtr though”. It cost what I get paid an hour but it does have a bottle designed by an artist and a promise to rebalance my pH so it must be worth it! As I turn around I smell the piquant stench of skunk and hope it won’t perfume my hair. I won’t have time to wash it before I’m back on shift.

      Tunneling into the sparse crowd I secure a seat with a view of The Empire State under a raspberry ripple sky. It’s a scene from a 1990’s rom-com; we just need Meg Ryan or Tom Hanks and a nostalgic soundtrack to complete the illusion. Unfortunately a thrash boy-band is on stage at the moment and a heavily tattooed singer is screaming, “I love you coz you’re ugly like me”. I hear my Mum snigger in my ear “At least he has some self knowledge”.

       I’m here because of my Mum. The band ‘James’ will be on next. Their song ‘Sit Down’ was her favorite. It was this song she made me promise to have played at her funeral.  After she got her lung cancer diagnosis she started planning how she wanted to say good-bye, choosing things that had meant a lot to her. The flowers were to be the ones she had in her bridal bouquet, readings would be poems she loved and the music would be favorite songs. She told me, “I want my coffin to be carried out to ‘Sit Down’. I’ve always loved the idea that anyone can find acceptance, the sad, the mad, even the ridiculous. And let’s face it love we’re all ridiculous. We live with no thought of tomorrow. Promise me you won’t let anyone tread on your dreams, don’t put off the things you want to do. Go to America, see the world, grasp every chance”. Of course I promised.

      Surprisingly the band appears on time. The singer, bald as a basin, wobbling like a mirage from 1989, commands the stage demanding of the crowd “What’d yer wanna hear?” and then ignores all requests. They play songs from their yet to be released album. The crowd nods along obligingly, clapping to give the impression that’s what they’ve come to hear. But we all know it’s not. Eventually they play ‘Laid’, the crowd heaves a collective cheer, it’s a song we all know. I start to sing along but I don’t stand yet. I hold my anticipation on my lap, an excited toddler trying to escape and run towards the bright lights of the stage. And then they’re gone. We wait for the inevitable encore but unbelievably the band does not reappear. As I leave I think I hear Mum whisper, “Arrogant twats”.

Adele Evershed

Wilton, Connecticut USA

 

Caught In The Headlights

Insects in the headlights. Moths exploding against the windscreen. Chains and tools rattling in the back of the van as it makes its way down the empty roads, heading in the opposite direction to which he’d promised to take her.

She pretends to have not noticed this detour. In fact, she expected him to take one. That’s why she’s in the van.

He strikes up some talk of these parts being very dangerous for lone girls, especially at this time of night. Yes, she lies, I was starting to panic. I’d missed the last bus. I’m so lucky you came along when you did. Of course, she doesn’t mention that she’d waited exactly where he would find her, at the edge of the village, when he left the pub at the usual time.

The van reeks of oil and his sweat, and not least of all his beery farts. His breathe is strong like petrol. He is over the limit. Well over. This is what her sister must have had up her nose.

She asks him his name. He says Malc, which she knows to be a lie. He asks her name. She says Karen, which is also a lie, but he doesn’t know that. Local are you?  No, she says, from town actually. Another lie.

She notices they are gaining speed and she is increasingly thrown from side to side as he pitches the van around sharp corners. He advises her to buckle-up her seat belt. Okay, she says, but only pretends to. He has one eye on the road and the other on her bared thighs. She casually hitches up her skirt so he can see more. He accelerates even faster.

She looks through the side window for any house lights but there are none. Suddenly they take a bend and a fox comes into view with a rabbit dangling from its mouth. He turns and looks at her and she smiles back. Good night for hunting, he says. Seems so, she says. Another mile further on and he narrowly misses a white-tailed deer with luminous green eyes, as it bounces across the road.

Then he’s onto a track heading into blackness. A dyke to one side, a cropped field to the other. Only dirt in front. Gets a bit rough here, he says. She thinks, I bet it does. And then up from her stomach comes the fear. Nothing new, though. Life with her father has taught her how to swallow and digest it. She forces it back down and feels its energising effect as it spreads into her legs, arms, hands and fingers.

He halts the van. Oh dear, I think we’ve come to a dead end, he says.

He twists in his seat, about to make his decisive move, but hardly has time to be astonished by the flashing blade coming his way. His eyes are as bright as any stunned creature’s, caught in the headlights of a fast approaching vehicle.

john e.c.

Hull, East Yorkshire

 

 

Home, Time

 

Drip, drip, drip. Many years ago a tortured Reggie had pleaded with Father to mend the water tank but naturally he hadn’t. Reggie now measured the time lapse between each drip. To his surprise it was the same as when he was a boy and this had been his bedroom. Back then he could say, ‘Dennis the Menace, Roger the Dodger, Minnie the Minx and Gnasher too’ eleven times between drips and he could still say that now. Reggie found this remarkable but at the same time he wasn’t sure if it disturbed or reassured him. What was clear to him though, as he lay on his old bed staring up at the familiar cracks on the ceiling, was that time had been marching along at a regular and irreversible tempo, even in his long absence.

 

This was Mary’s house now. His sister had seen them all go at some point: Father to his drink, Mother to her grave and Reggie to his women. Only Reggie had now returned, for a while anyway, because Jean had kicked him out again. He couldn’t very well go to his daughter in Barnsley; she always took Jean’s side anyway.

 

When they were kids, Mary would often come to Reggie for comfort on the nights Father returned in a mood from The Duke of York and things would get heated downstairs. They’d huddle tight and watch the shadows moving across the walls, cast by the lights of growling vehicles taking the hill in low gear. The street lamppost always gave Reggie great comfort in those days. He thought it would be impossible to sleep without its soft, protecting glow and he held the idea that the world would end if the light ever went out during the night. Thankfully the world didn’t end, even after Father had been given his marching orders and wasn’t seen again.

 

Feeling a great thirst, Reggie sat up and reached out for his mug of tea which was sitting on one side of the dressing table. The table once belonged in his parent’s bedroom but was relegated to here with the onset of Formica. Still inside the drawers were some of his old comics: The Beezer, Whizzer and Chips and The Beano, of course. For no reason he could really think of, Desperate Dan of The Dandy suddenly came to mind. 

 

After draining the tea, Reggie examined the young queen’s face on the coronation mug and considered how differently she looked now; how she had inevitably aged. Then he lifted his head and looked into the mirror to inspect himself. It was no shock to see Father staring back, almost straight through him. The familiar glare, but with all the shine gone from the once clear eyes.

 

Reggie heeded the drip again. Then began his repetitive murmur: ‘Dennis the Menace, Roger the Dodger, Minnie the Minx and Gnasher too.’ Over and over again, as the lamppost came back on and shadows began to flicker across the room.

Wilco Spencer

Yorkshire

Classic MacDonald’s

 

Who’s this they’re playing? I ask my husband. Is it Canteloube? 

Yes, Baïlèro, he says. Victoria de Los Angeles. 

Not Kiri Te Kanawa? 

No, definitely not. 

 

Geoffrey knows his music inside out. Just like he knows the MacDonald’s menu. Tonight he’s having ‘The Garlic Mayo Chicken One - Grilled’ with a ‘Millionaire’s Iced Frappé’. I’m sticking to a ‘Happy Meal Veggie Wrap’ and an ‘Oreo McFlurry’. Actually, we’re more of a KFC couple, but since MacDonald’s have started playing classical music in the evenings, we’ve swapped allegiance. Apparently, Mozart and company supposedly calm the atmosphere and counteract any rowdy shenanigans from the customers. Well, we don’t know about that, but we do love the playlist. Ah, I think this next one is Beethoven.

Moonlight Sonata, Geoffrey?

Yes.

 

We come here most evenings. It was last Wednesday, around midnight I think, and we were really enjoying the Goldberg Variations: Aria. I was just finishing ‘The Spicy Veggie One’ when a young couple sitting nearby started arguing. Something to do with the choice of venue. 

We always end up at Mackis having a cheeseburger, she said. 

Well, I can’t afford much else, he said. 

But I’d rather have a pizza, she said. 

You would, he said and so on.  

Geoffrey was brave enough to lean over and ask them to lower their voices as we could no longer hear the music. Unfortunately, the young man took umbrage and told Geoffrey he could take his effin Beethoven and stick it up his you know what. 

It’s Bach actually, said Geoffrey. Glenn Gould on piano. 

And he was right, of course.

 

And last Thursday some football youths, fresh from a home match, embarked on a round of singing at the top of their not very well-trained voices; a chant deriding the size of the restaurant. 

I quote:

‘My garden shed Is bigger than this!

Is bigger than this!

It’s got a door and a window.

My garden shed is bigger than this!’

Again Geoffrey intervened and asked them whether it was really appropriate to uncouthly disturb such a wonder as Haydn’s La Grande Sarabande?

This stopped them momentarily until they started shouting and pointing at him,

‘Who ate all the pies? 

You fat bastard! You fat bastard!

You at all the pies!’

They should have sang, ‘The Sweet Chilli Chicken One’, but nevermind.

 

However, nothing really compares to what happened one recent Friday night. When two groups of inebriated women started fighting during Ride Of The Valkyries, poor Geoffrey decided to make his displeasure known. He was immediately thrown back towards our table by a rather large, tattooed lady. He banged his head, lost consciousness and my ‘Quaker Oats So Simple Apple and Cherry Porridge’ went flying into my lap. By the time he came around he was surrounded by customers and management alike. A newly arrived police officer asked him if he would be able to identify the perpetrators.

 

Of course, he said,

Wagner, conductor Hans Knappertsbusch and the Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra.

 

Magaret Sprauge de Camp

Conisbrough, South Yorkshire

Not Strictly Dancing

 

Saturday, fight night. My parents are home from dancing and I wake to hear them doing battle below. I try to ignore it by sticking my head under the pillow. No use, the din is going up and up. Every no-no word you can imagine bouncing around my bedroom walls and into my ears.

 

The dog will be in the living room. I’m worried about Dash, so I go downstairs and find him hiding behind Dad’s chair. I huddle next to him and stroke his head. We hear the cutlery drawer open with enough force to make the knives and forks lift and crash. Dash’s ears leap up and his eyes look up at mine. Dad shouts something about not being so no-no stupid. Then she screams get off me you no-no no-no.

 

I leave Dash and dare to stick my head around the kitchen door. It stinks like petrol or whatever it is they like to drink. I can see him on top of her. He has her arms firmly pinned against the lino. She is spitting into his eyes. As he turns his face away he sees me. He tells me to go back upstairs. Please don’t hurt her, I say. Get out, he shouts.

 

I run into the hall and phone my sister. I hear her telling her husband to turn the no-no telly down and then she helps me to stop crying. That’s it, talk slowly, she says. I tell her Dad has Mum on the floor. He probably has no choice, she says. She’ll have grabbed something, she always does. Go and have a look then come and tell me what.

 

On my return to the kitchen the dog passes me going the other way. He sits beneath the coat hanger in the hall and sticks his head under Dad’s parker so his face can’t be seen.

 

By now they have become separated and there’s a stand-off. He is in one corner and she is in the other. Her eyes are wet and bright, like Dash when he’s out walking. She yells you just can’t keep your no-no hands to yourself, can you? And it’s always her! Her, whose no-no you squeeze every no-no Saturday night. You lousy, no-no no-no no-no!

 

Dad is saying nothing now but has his eyes fixed on what she has in her hand, a fork from the Avengers set Gran gave me for Christmas.

 

She moves closer and he moves sideways. They begin to circle each other, step for step. He turns on his heels as she moves within striking range. As she brings the fork forwards his chest goes back and his legs spring into action. Quick as a flash he has her hand in his. The fork drops to the floor and they grip each other. Her left hand clasps his right and he has her firmly by the waist. Their eyes lock and I hold my breath, waiting for the no-no dance to continue.

 

Geoff Tracey

Otterburn, Northumbria

Lost To Me

 

It was January, maybe February.  My wife had taken the kids to her mother’s for a long weekend. I had to work on Saturday and so was home alone on Sunday. Yes, it happened one Sunday during the winter. And it was raining, definitely raining.

 

Rather than stay in the house I caught the bus into town. It was still early, before most of the shops had opened. I went into the small cafe in the market square and had a drink of tea and some toast, or it could have been a teacake. Not a scone though, I only ever eat those in the afternoon.

 

There were very few shoppers out that morning, probably because it was so cold and wet. The streets were full of puddles which I had to step over or between. If I remember rightly, the sky was grey, nearly black, but the pavements were shiny and in the gloom the shops all looked brighter than normal.

 

Near the end of the arcade was one of those surplus book shops which also sells games, toys, stationery, art materials and so on. I went in. I think it  was ten o’clock or thereabouts. I was the only customer and there was only one shop assistant in the place. She was wearing one of those name badges. For some weeks later I remembered her name but I can’t recall it now.

 

While I was looking at some of the special offers near the window she came over and we began a polite conversation. I really can’t recollect a single word that was said between us, but what I do remember, or rather feel, was that when she spoke a light came on inside of me; something like that. She talked so calmly, without a hint of gossip or cynicism. Pure kindness; a simple, clear intelligence. She politely held my gaze with a smile and patiently listened to whatever it was I had to say. Absolutely delightful. Truth be told, she was more plain than pretty, but I knew at that instant she was the most perfect person I would ever meet. It had taken forty-one years for this to happen.

 

At some point in our conversation the wind got up and the rain began lashing against the window. We both turned our heads and watched in silence as the shower blurred the view. Perhaps the lights in the shop began to flicker. Whatever, this is where the memory begins to drain away.

 

Weeks or months later she still loomed large in my imagination. Happily married, but I daydreamed of a different, ideal life, spent together with this modest, younger woman.

 

I kept my distance though, only returning to the shop after a while; two years perhaps, or even more. If she still worked there I couldn’t tell. Not only had her name escaped me but her face too. She was completely lost to me.

 

The shop has now changed hands and sells other things.

Wilco Spencer

Yorkshire

Odysseus At Scarborough

 

Shattered oars and crew; Poseidon rolled us around the great headland west of Doggerland and to our great relief we put ashore at Scarborough. A safe harbour, or so we thought.

 

Bank Holiday Monday. The herd out in force from Leeds, Sheffield and Barnsley with their pitbulls and offspring. Pubs and bars showing the Prem on BT and Sky and rammed with thick-accented Tykes with beer-guts and shorn heads, sporting replica football shirts and tattoos, the English rash.

 

I advised my boys to keep well away, but did they? Course not. Once we’d requisitioned some cricket bats, deck chairs and beach huts for timber to patch up the ship, they went straight off into town. Soft lads. I told ‘em though: be back before the next tide or I’m leaving yer.

 

I kept watch on the sand and lit the barbeque. My first mate soon returned with burgers and chicken wings from Farmfoods and a Carling twelve-pack. I scolded him. Carling, is that all you can manage? Sorry Oddy, he explained, the place has nearly been drunk dry. It was that or Tennents!

 

Hours later the crew started slurring back with bruised faces and sick down their fronts. I asked, how come you’ve all been spewing? It’s me that’s had to endure the Carling. It was the Cyclops, they said. Cyclops? I said. I thought we’d seen-off old Eyegone way back when. It’s the big ride on the seafront, they said. It throws you this way and that way until yer balls are nearly in yer mouth. Mental, it is.

 

Half of ‘em were sore from sunburn or new tattoos. I said, why didn’t you use sunblock? Look, I’ve got factor 30 on. And by Calypso’s calves, what’s with the sirens you’ve had stamped across your thighs and necks? If I remember rightly, the last time we saw ‘em you all had yer headphones on, listening to Slayer and Metallica. It was me who grabbed an earful. Like Kate Bush, Nico and Clare Torry all mixed into one. Lovely, it was!

 

Worst of all though, was what they’d taken from Sports Soccer. New trainers, tracky bottoms and so on. Some of ‘em had Man Utd and Liverpool shirts on their backs. I got so angry. Are you for real? I shouted. This is the east coast, the North Sea.  We’ll soon be back in Yorkshire waters. Zeus won’t have any of us displaying Lancashire colours. Lightning and thunderbolts! I screamed.

 

Anyway, the tide was rising and suddenly we had more pressing concerns. Some of the boys’ raw chat-up lines had failed them miserably in the Lord Nelson and as a result they were now being pursued across the beach by an infuriated hen party from Doncaster. Flanked on all sides by handbags and cellulite, we managed to get the vessel back into the water and avoided being speared by a volley of stiletto heels.

 

We rowed hard and we rowed fast, back into the broiling sea.

Kid Spent

Scarborough, Yorkshire

 

 

Trip Advisor Review: New Model Village

 

As model village enthusiasts, my wife and I were really looking forward to visiting this contemporary, ‘Modern World’ attraction but how disappointed we were!

 

Let’s start with the basics. Firstly we had to pay for the privilege of parking and the admission fee was exorbitant: no reductions for OAPs! Next we were told by an unenthusiastic teenage member of staff that the cafe was closed. No cup of tea, then. As for the toilets, the smell therein reminded me very much of a Moroccan tannery.

 

However, this was only the start of things! Onto the village itself...

 

Let’s take the consistency of scale, or rather the lack of it. For example, the zombie spice addicts, depicted in the wild throws of addiction, were nearly as tall as McDonald’s, giving them an unreal, Godzilla-like presence. And when have mobile booze buses ever been smaller than the drunks they cater for? The food bank [shoebox, actually] was the largest building in the village. Crazy!

 

As for authenticity, let’s consider the prison. This parody of a maximum security unit was a joke, but not a funny one. A beer crate sprayed with red and black zigzags and surrounded by barbed wire does not represent the real thing. The guards too were suspect. Do they really wear evening suits with dickie bow ties? We think not! Clearly they were a generic set of figures from a stock source with no thought of customization. They were not even stuck on carefully; some looked like they were about to hurl themselves from the towers, no doubt in suicidal despair at being forced to stand guard over such an edifice in perpetuity!

 

The attention to detail was no better. Dare I mention the dyke that ran between the sewerage works and the recycling plant? Yes, it displays certain aspects of human flotsam and jetsam [dumped supermarket trollies, for example] but not enough. Where, for instance, was the industrial effluent,  toxic blooms of algae and the profusion of discarded plastic products endemic in our ecosystem?

 

Might I suggest that an audio soundtrack would have improved the exhibits? Certainly, such technology now exists. For example, the street brawl outside the JD Wetherspoons pub would have been much better realised had it included the vile screaming and cursing so commonly witnessed amongst present-day violent types. The far-right political rally would have been a lot more enriching if we could have heard what poison the populist demagogue was shouting from the podium outside Primark. And as for the manual car wash worked by modern day slave labourers: it would have been a lot more realistic if we could have listened to actual overseas accents, such as Albanian, Nigerian or Vietnamese.

 

All told, when we came to the end of this measly fifteen minute experience and exited through the high-surveillance gate, we did feel a tad foolish, deflated and somewhat short-changed. My advice to anyone thinking of visiting the ‘Modern World’ is avoid, avoid, avoid!

Geoff Tracey

Otterburn, Northumbria

Hagthorn Witch

 

My sisters and I call them ‘hagthorn’, ‘quickthorn’ or ‘whitehorn’. Here they are simply known as ‘hawthorn’. There is no romance in these people’s language. I use the berries and flowers for vinegar [tart and fruity], jellies [eat with oatcakes to help with digestion] and wines and liqueurs [you know what they lead to!] Today I am collecting for a poultice. I will pulp the cuckoo beads and place them on his skin. They will help remedy his soreness, his inflammation. I will drink a hawthorn tincture to help with the homesickness; then I will move with more ease in this place. This blighted, injured place.

 

Police beatings and arrests; union meetings suppressed; scabbing; evictions. People eat the thinnest soup I have ever seen and the strike goes on. Families sieve coal from the slag-heaps or hack down the trees for firewood. These hawthorns will soon go and I will have to walk much further afield for my medicines. These are not my people and I know in the next county my family still live among oaks, limes and rowans.

 

He has been let home. He sleeps in his chair or stands in silence in the yard. Come evening he will be called for and off he will go. I take the hot kettle and pour water into the tin bath. He strips and lets me bathe him. His toughened skin is gnarled and bark-like. Blue scars criss-cross his arms and legs, like skeletons of leaves. After I dry him I apply the poultice to where it hurts the most. He winces but holds a smile for my benefit. He places a strong hand on the back of my neck. Sorry for all this, he says. I should never have brought you here. I came gladly, I say. I am your wife.

 

Evening comes and he is gone. A meeting somewhere. I drink the tincture and go for a walk. Rows of terraced houses: Pretoria Road, Empire Street and Victoria Avenue. From somewhere beyond the backs I hear the banging on a door, dogs barking, angry voices and crying. Behind The Welfare there are tents. Women stand like statues in the mist, staring into nowhere. Some are holding babies or have children clinging to their sides.

The tonic begins to take effect. I am becoming so lightheaded I almost float out of the village. Darkness descends. The pit head fades to a silhouette but I know where I am. The musty, acrid aroma of hawthorn trees fill my senses. They stand like sentinels on either side. I hear animals creeping in the ferns; owls calling each other. I easily find the tree I feel the closest to; laden with berries, covered with the sharpest spears. Guided mostly by touch, I collect thorns from the tree and create a mini grove. Then I sit inside the protective circle, bringing forth incantations of passion and curses upon the foe.

Lena Merman

Preston, Lancashire

 

Islander Court of Public Opinion

 

Two months icebound on the island, so ready for the spring melt and resumption of regular ferry service.

 

We count around 400 of us and exactly one public gathering place, the Wharfside. The pub is everyone’s second family room. Makes sense considering how many of us are inter-related. Non-drinkers end up passing the hours down there too. Cards and board games, cross-words. The couple who own the pub went to extraordinary measures to stock the place ahead so the island didn’t dry out during the seasonal supply drought.

 

Not to say we’re absolutely confined and cut off. Our mail carrier ventures to the mainland on a snowmobile twice a week. Government regulations bar him from letting anyone ride along, but if you have a solid reason, he’ll break the rule. Sixteen winters of this routine and he’s still perfect at steering around holes and open rifts. Most people won’t try it alone—too many previous mis-judgements. Even he won’t go at night though.

 

The Coast Guard lands their helicopter on Lookout Hill in the lot behind the post office if someone has a medical emergency. It happened three times so far this Winter. Heart attack, stroke, chain-saw accident. Those Coasties get ‘em up and out on the double-quick, true professionals.

 

I wouldn’t be surprised if someone has a betting pool on the season’s helicopter visits total at the pub. Okay, I mean there is indeed a pool and I wagered twenty bucks that we’ll see them two more times this winter.

 

You hear about the differences in our ways, but this place is the same modern world everyone else lives in. Mostly. It’s not like we don’t have TV here. And internet.

 

Our more minor medical patch-ups come from asking Dr. Google what to do. You know, if Mayo Clinic’s website says you probably have scurvy, start eating more fruit. So many fixes are rooted in common sense.

 

Last month our local controversy was that someone or someones consumed a large number of apples from  a common cold storage area. Stop the presses. Right? Suddenly every laid up fisherman was an arm chair detective. Mend mackerel nets, consume spirits, find the diabolical apple thief. High drama.

 

So they put their heads together and pooled clues until one of them worked out that I was their suspect. I thought about pushing back against it, but the island is small. I ended up admitting it. Now nobody believes I’m sorry. They let me make restitution and then they didn’t wire the sheriff’s department about it.

 

I’ve tried to make it up to everybody, but only my friend Starla will speak to me when I’m in The Wharfside. She ate half the apples, but I didn’t rat her out. I know a lot about Starla and she knows more about me.

 

Why spread the misery? It’s simpler when everyone has a single common target for their disdain.

 

It seems like eating is such a small sin to be frozen out for. That’s island court.

 

Nobody is more eager than me to see that ice go out.

 

Todd Mercer

 

Grand Rapids and Antrim County, Michigan USA

Storybook Cottage

 

 

“Get small,” someone whispered in Benny’s ear. “Time to get small.”

 

Benny woke the next morning and called an acquaintance he knew from the pub, a guy who works in real estate. This was before the morning coffee water boiled.

 

“I’m selling my worldly belongings. I want to get into one of those super-small houses. Me and Marla want to.”

 

“How did you convince her?”

 

“Well, I haven’t told her yet.”

 

The realtor acquaintance, rubbing sleepies from his eyes and heaping regret atop last night’s tequila detects dollars in it. He agrees to take Benny around to a few homes the size of food trucks, or smaller. One’s a U-haul trailer with skylights cut in.

 

At breakfast Marla makes Benny Bob Evans sausage and hash browns, exactly how he orders them at Waffle House: scattered, covered and smothered, topped and chunked. Benny thanked her as he tucked into his vein-damming death-wish. When he gets too scared to eat like this one day, that’s how he’ll know youth is over.

 

He says, “Thanks, baby.”

 

“You’ve got it good,” she counters. Because right off the top, here’s a woman who will spend an entire bag of shredded cheese on a man’s hash browns. If necessary. As long as he treats her right.

 

“Oh, yeah. I do. You’re right,” Benny said, not normally imaginative, in favor of the straightest words between two points. “But Marla, let me tell you, I, uh, decided to build one of those little bitty houses.”

 

“That’s the craziest thing a man ever said to me, Benny.”

 

“Yeah, okay. I’m doing that. And I want you to move in with me.”

 

“Maybe,” she said. “How small are we talking? I need my closets.”

 

He wanted it spartan, utilitarian. Marla countered with large enough to be charming. He envisioned a basic toilet, a stove, a bed. She almost later wished she hadn’t move in when she saw the shoebox he’d signed a mortgage on. Marla took a breath and plunged in.

 

It was a novel situation to them. At first. They’d lay on their backs in bed and touch all four walls at once. Benny was so happy. They paid two hundred a month. Golden.

 

Then it snowed for four months, nearly continuously. There was no more Alone Time. Pacing, when it occurred, was four or five steps. Five short strides in four natural paces—a lesser-known clave rhythm. By month three of that, they each dreamed of doing terrible things to the other one to double space and maximize quiet.

It was not a positive dealio at all by then.

 

Early in the month four they started saying their murder fantasies out loud. Some days Benny hoped she would catch him sleeping and just finish it. Either way is fine when you are in a little bitty house.

 

At snowmelt they sold the place to other idealists and bought a rambling Second Empire mansion. Six bedrooms, no more mention of the loose blizzard talk. Happy ever after, amen.

Todd Mercer

 

Grand Rapids and Antrim County, Michigan USA

Censorship in Beijing Suburbia

 

“Welcome home, Mr. Qin.” A female robotic voice blurted as a green beam of light scanned across Qin’s face. 

 

The front door of a suburban tower in Beijing opened, revealing a small studio apartment.

.

As Qin sauntered in, the same robotic voice reemerged from the overhead speakers. “Mr. Qin, may I please remind you that relevant authorities have strict guidelines on correct coverage of labor protests? Should I recite the parts that are relevant for your next assignment?”

 

“Thanks for the reminder.” Qin, holding back his annoyance, looked up at the ceiling, “You don’t need to get so nosy about my work. I’ve been doing this for years. I know where the red line is.”

 

Qin knew that being an independent journalist in China would not be easy, but he wanted people to know that not everyone benefited from the country’s economic boom. But he would have never figured out that the government found a way to monitor his work with everyday conveniences.

“Great, Mr. Qin, you shouldn’t work so hard. I am going to reserve a taxi for you for 8 am tomorrow so that you can go directly to the factory for your interviews.” The female voice pipped, “Let me also fill the bathtub with hot water. Surely you’d like a hot bath today?”

“Thanks, sometimes I really wonder if you could read my mind,” Qin quipped as he nonchalantly scrolled through his phone. 

Xiaochen Su

 

USA

Loads Of Places

 

Tell me again, what were the three of you doing at the lake?

Climbin trees and stuff.

Stuff?

Nestin.

Rattin.

Get any eggs?

Greenfinch.

Still got them?

No, broke in mi pocket. Chucked em.

And ratting. With what?

Pellet gun.

Yours?

Yeah.

Kill any?

A few.

What did you do with them?

Just left em.

Shoot any ducks?

Not allowed to. Warned about it, big time.

By Big Ronnie.

Ronnie Jenson?

Yeah. Big Ronnie.

And that’s where you both last saw Ricky, by the lake?

Yeah.

Yeah.

What was Ricky doing when you last saw him?

Like I said before, e went for a slash.

Where?

In wood.

Just a slash?

Maybe a dump, dunno.

What did he say before he went in the wood?

E said e was guin for a slash.

Did he mention wanting a dump?

No.

No.

How come you didn’t try to find him when he didn’t return?

Thought e’d gone off ome or summat.

Why did you think that?

Well, e’s a mardy arse. Loses is temper over nowt. Dun’t e?

Yeah. Over nowt.

How come you’re friends, then?

Not, really.

So why knock about together?

Well, e likes our gun and we liked is dog.

Liked?

Cos e’s ours now, aren’t you Gunner?

This is Ricky’s dog?

Was. Yeah, Gunner.

Good boy, good boy. That’s it, settle down.

Gunner?

Yeah, it’s like a joke name. Gunner catch some rabbits. Know what I mean?

How come it’s now your dog?

Er, Ricky said e was sick of it. Wanted a bigger ‘un.

An Alsatian, like coppers ave.

When did he give it to you?

Before e went for a slash.

Or a dump.

Did Gunner put up a struggle, when you tried to lead him home?

No, e was as appy as Larry. Weren’t you boy, ey?

Ricky used to beat im.

And kick im.

Why, is he viscous or something?

Ricky is, not Gunner.

Dead viscous.

Okay, can you explain why there’s a rope around his neck?

Ricky’s?

No, Gunner’s.

Oh, we were just gunner take Gunner for a walk.

When you showed up.

Why the rope, though?

Aven’t ad chance to buy a lead, yet.

It’s Sunday, anyhows. Shops r’shut round ere.

He’s doing a lot of whining.

Probably needs a slash.

Or a dump.

You do know Ricky hasn’t been home for more than twenty four hours? His mother is sick with worry.

So y’said.

Twice.

Alright, but is there anywhere you think he might be, where he might have come to some harm?

Well, there’s slurry pit.

And old mine shaft near slurry pit.

And railway lines near mine shaft.

And tunnels near railway lines.

And brickyard near tunnels.

Loads o places.

Loads.

I see. And Ricky knows them all?

Yeah.

Which is the most dangerous?

All of em are dangerous when yer on yer own.

Defo, if yer on y’tod.

Okay, okay. Think again. What else were you doing at the lake? Was Big Ronnie there?

Theo Curtz

Castleford, West Yorkshire

 

Robyn

 

Even on a cold morning like this, Robyn rises before the alarm rings. In the near dark she is already flitting from room to room, softly humming as she goes. She places the kids’ clean shoes and clothes at the ends of their beds. Always busy, I hear her in the kitchen preparing packed lunches and pouring cereals into bowls. She brings a cup of tea to my bedroom. ‘Morning mother,’ she in says in her kind, tuneful way. ‘Did you sleep well?’ She wakes the kids with kisses, whispers and a nursery rhyme: ‘There’s no time for napping, no time to lose, you’ll never start if you don’t begin.’ When they leave for school she has them all in chorus. I hear them take their singing down the path and out into the street.

 

Robyn returns with stuff from the food bank and my medicines. We keep to the kitchen to stay warm. She helps me into my chair near the heater and we listen to my favourite radio station, the one with tunes on it. As she peels the vegetables for the casserole she duets with the singers. Always in tune, Robyn can harmonize with the vacuum cleaner and make it stick.

 

Come our ciggie time, we sit on the back door step and brave the cold. Although the sun is out there is little warmth in it. We listen to the birds singing across the yards. I think that’s a robin, probably calling for a mate, she says.  Is there one answering? I ask. I can’t hear one, she says.

 

After lunch she leaves me to sleep and goes off to one of her cleaning jobs. When I wake up the house is very quiet. From the kitchen I can even hear the upstairs clock ticking, the one in her room.

 

Music only returns when everyone comes home. Grandchildren, excitable and emotional, fill the void of silence from tea time to bath time. Then when it’s time for bed, Robyn reads them stories; each character deserving their own particular voice. And then it’s time for lullabies. Babies no longer, but they can’t resist their mother’s lilt: ‘Lay thee down now and rest, may thy slumber be blessed.’

 

Tonight Robyn washes my hair as I sit in the bath. ‘South Pacific’ is one of our favourite musicals and so we sing together, ‘I’m Gonna Wash That Man Right Out Of My Hair’. Through the rinse we laugh and chirp, ‘Waste no time, weep no more, show him what the door is for. Rub him out of the roll call and drum him out of your dreams!’ She tweets happily but it won’t last.

 

First to rise and last to bed, that’s Robyn. When, at last, I’m tucked up in bed, I listen to her tip-toe along the landing. She closes down the day. Lights out and the big bedroom door is gently shut. Eventually it comes: a low murmur, quite tuneless; always her tearful prelude to silence.

 

Jools Belfitt

Langho, Lancashire

 

 

Stinging Nettle Day

 

Sting or be stung. By the time I reach school I already have bumpy, white blisters all over my legs and arms. I was ambushed by the gang near the bridge and felt their keen nettles on my flesh. But I wasn’t unprepared; I had picked a lovely, big stinger from the dykeside and wielded it to great effect. Look at them now, with their throbbing faces and sore necks. However, they are smiling through their pain, for come playtime they expect revenge. You can tell some of children have already had enough, even though they have their weapons hidden in their desks. They are afraid and so they should be, for this is Stinging Nettle Day, hooray!

 

Out in the playground and it’s every boy and girl for themselves. I get cornered by my foes and am needled on my ears and nose but I roll out from my position, striking the backs of their calves . Praise be for short trousers! Some of the younger children are in tears and want to stop, but the melee continues even when the teacher blows his whistle and shouts at us. We will be punished; we were last year; but what could hurt more than a hundred nettle stings; oh glorious, sore delight!

 

Now the confiscation, the caning and the licking of wounds. A time for healing and an assembly to help us think about our behaviour. I think about hometime and the tall spikers outside the school gates; the resumption of hostilities; the settling of scores. But because I am considered the chief ringleader, I am kept back for ten minutes at the end of the afternoon.

 

Alas, the street is now empty, so I leave the nettles alone. Bad mistake, for as I pass Hangman’s Oak I see my greatest enemy charging at me with a fistful of barbed leaves. It is Gertie Schofield and she comes like a banshee from across the green. I run until my lungs are fit to burst but she is taller than me and is getting within striking distance.

 

We stop, pant and glare. She has me cornered. I can only escape through the bank of nettles by the common gate. I turn to look. I’m thinking, would their terrible stings be preferable to hers? You daren’t, she says. You daren’t, says I . Try me, she says. With that, I run straight into them, not expecting her to follow. But here she is at my heels. She has managed to grab hold of my collar and is pulling me down into the burning, acid ground. We are rolling over and over each other. Her skirt is up past her waist and I can feel her her hot, raw legs on mine. She finally pegs me down and her mad, victorious eyes are piercing. We are both on fire. Our poisoned skin should make us weep, but the agony only makes us laugh, for there is also great pleasure penetrating this pain!

Thelma Littler

Witheridge, Devon

 

A Winter’s Tale

 

Daya enjoys volunteering at the charity shop and spends as much time there as possible. She enjoys the work and the socialising; but most of all she likes being warm. It’s the same with the citizens advice and the job centre; they’re also quite toasty. Currys is her favourite shop. Daya likes to wander around the electrical appliances in the warmth and watch the silent TVs.

 

Daya’s friend is Alma with arthritis.  Alma spends most days in the park hothouse with the palms and the parrots or else sits in the corner cafe until her coffee goes stone cold. She spends as much time away from her flat as possible. It’s not just the damp, but she fears the bailiff will turn up again with another warrant from the magistrate. Last time, he had a locksmith, a dog handler and a gas fitter with him and between them they stormed into the flat and fitted a pre-payment meter. Shocking, it really was.

 

The two friends’ favourite TV programme is ‘Neighbours’. Australia looks a nice, hot country even in winter. They usually watch the omnibus edition together on Sunday mornings when they both get back from church. Neither of them are believers but they go to All Saints because it has central heating and the service lasts a long time. They do lots of things together even though they’d rather do some things alone; it just saves on the energy bills, y’know.

 

Like now, for instance. Daya is at Alma’s. She checks the slow-cooker one more time. She has learnt that slow-cookers use less electricity than a hob. The pork, lentil and barley casserole is done. The discount meat is tender enough to be chewed. Together they share the hot food. ‘Eat or heat’ is something they fully understand.

 

But they do have their electric heated fleece, which cost them £40 from Aldi. They snuggle together, safe in the knowledge that it only uses 100 watts even at its highest setting, so they get ten hours of heat for one unit of electricity. On cold nights the friends have even slept together. Last Sunday it was so cold they stayed in Daya’s bed most of the day and listened to the radio. Alma doesn’t like pop music and Daya can’t stand classical so they listened to Radio 4. The wireless uses a lot less electricity than the TV, which is a shame, it really is.


As Alma carefully fills the kettle with just enough water for two cups of coffee, Daya switches on the TV. The ‘Neighbours’ theme tune is playing:  ‘Neighbours, Need to get to know each other. Next door is only a footstep away!’ Then they hear the meter click. The emergency electric has activated itself. Daya knows neither Alma nor herself can afford the luxury of any TV today and so switches it off. Instead, they both direct a cold stare at the blank telly and imagine Australia; its hot weather and healthy, tanned bodies.

Lena Merman

Preston, Lancashire

 

A Vintage Year

 

Next up, a 1947 Cheval Blanc. Slanee uncorks the bottle and pours us both a drink. A mug each. Mm, not bad, but a bit dry. Slanee adds a little cider to hers. Much better, she says. I drain my mug and then clean my palette with a can of lager. The baby is crying for its milk. Okay, okay it’s coming! Can’t get enough to drink, the greedy little sod.

 

We’ve inherited a case of vintage wine from Slenee’s Uncle Brian. Her mum’s teetotal, poor bitch, and so has passed it on to us. Who was Uncle Brian? I ask. A fat, rich perv with groping hands, she tells me.  Let’s raise a toast to his health, I say. He’s dead, soft lad, she says. The baby is wailing again. Hey, greedy guts, I told you it’s coming, didn’t I?

 

Yesterday at the  library we were reluctantly allowed a computer. We did some of that researching stuff and found out that we’re sitting on top of a small fortune. For example, a bottle of 2009 Chateau Latour is worth £9,900. We had three of those before the weekend and still have one unopened, I think. If we can manage to flog what’s left we’ll be well minted. We’ll be able to pay the rent, heat the house and even get the baby some powdered milk instead of the semi-skinned. Maybe get the social off our backs, at long last.

 

Bilge is here now. He tells us he knows a bloke down Slayton Street who can shift the gear for us if he’s allowed to choose a bottle for himself. No probs, says Slanee. Here, take one for yourself. Cheers, says Bilge, choosing an 1812 J.S. Madeira Terrantez. He goes into the kitchen, returns with an empty milk bottle, cracks open the wine and pours it in. He drinks half a pint straight off. A bit rich, he says. I offer him my lager. Here, I say, rinse it down with this. Much improved, he says, but why is the baby crying? It’s always crying, I tell him. Is it yours? he asks. How do I know? I say. Course it’s yours, laughs Slanee. Can you hear him, Bilge? What a knobhead! Bilge tries to pacify the baby with its dummy but it spits it out and turns up the volume. Spirited little bugger, aren’t you! says Bilge.

 

After a couple more bottles we tire of the wine and go looking for some other stuff but to our disbelief there’s nothing else in the house, not even any aftershave lotion. So we take the last three bottles out of the case. That’s one each, y’know. I get an 1855 Grand Cru Classe Paulliac. I think that’s what it says on the label. Oh, if I have to, I say, and start to neck it. I notice Slanee and Bilge are asleep and I begin drifting too, despite that noise coming from somewhere in the room.

Beryl From The Block

Thwing, East Yorkshire

Coming, Ready Or Not

 

Jimmy is hiding in the long grass in Mrs Ashman’s garden. He can hear Peter at the lampost, finishing his counting. Fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, nineteen, twenty. Coming, ready or not! The air is sticky and itchy fly things, which have dropped down with the air pressure, bother his face. He decides to cut across the lawn and hide behind the shed but Mrs Ashman spots him. She bangs on the window and Jimmy can tell her muffled voice is shouting something not nice. He sneaks out onto the street hoping Peter won’t see him but there he is. Ha! Tig, got you!

 

Billie chooses to hide behind the coal bunker at number eleven but changes her mind when she sees Mrs Hindmarsh coming the other way with a basket full of washing. Mrs Hindmarsh shouts to someone in the house about what a bleedin’ waste of her time that was. Billie doesn’t hear anyone reply and its only at that moment she realises it is spitting with rain. She backtracks a little, sees that both of her brothers are now seeking her out and bobs between the old garage and a skip. However, there’s two snoggers already there. He has a hand up her blouse and she is rubbing the thing in his trousers. Billie has seen her brothers’ things at bathtime and wonders why anyone would want to play with a boy’s disgusting bit. They do not see her and she nimbly moves on.

 

Jimmy and Peter both think their sister will be hiding behind a car, as usual. They hunt in pairs. Red car, no. Blue car, no. White car, no. In the black car they see Mr and Mrs Allport through a cloud of cigarette smoke. He is talking loudly and she has mascara running down her face. A sudden peal of thunder makes them look up and while they do Billie races past them. Can’t tig me, she laughs. They chase her as fast as they can and Jimmy tigs Billie just as she stretches out to touch the lamppost. Got you! No, you didn’t! Yes, I did, liar! You’re a liar, loser! I won, you know I did, so you’re a loser!

 

Another thunderclap, much nearer now,  stops their argument. Then they hear their mother’s voice calling from the door. Billie, Jimmy, Peter! Come in now! You’ll get soaked if you don’t come in! Can you hear me? Billie, Jimmy, Peter!

 

It is no longer just drizzling. Bigger and bigger raindrops start to cover the street, until there are more dark places than light places. Their house is barely more than a hop, skip and jump away but the children know they won’t make it. Lightning flashes and the shower wave moves towards them faster than any car can. They remain where they are and become instantly drenched; clothes and hair clinging to their small, sodden frames. Their mother barely manages to see them, so hard is the rain that comes.

 

john e.c.

Hull,  East Yorkshire

 

New To The Street

 

We arrived one washday Monday. Laundry danced on the lines along the back streets. Sheets, shirts, knickers and vests; all as white as the clouds racing across a sky scrubbed as clean as a front doorstep.

 

In the following weeks I also hung the washing out, while the baby slept in the pram in the yard. Women in headscarves came to inspect my cleanliness. They stood outside the gate, nodding and whispering. Three weeks in and one of them plucked up the courage to speak to me and was astonished to find I spoke the same language. She came back the next day with some baby clothes as a gift; worn but ironed and smelling fresh.

 

I told my husband about this when he arrived home from the factory. In the evening he read aloud a passage from Jeremiah: ‘And seek the peace of the city whither I have caused you to be carried away captives, and pray unto the Lord for it: for in the peace thereof shall ye have peace.’

 

To make extra money I washed and ironed laundry for those who cared not to do it for themselves, mostly single men. Unlike the women I’d made acquaintance with, these men didn’t want to engage in any conversation beyond formalities. One of them liked to lock me into his stare; and couldn’t stop his pasty grin from becoming a mocking smile. He always laughed to himself as he turned to leave and spat at the gate before walking down the backs. My husband said he recognised him from the workplace; he was one of those who had started spitting on the shop floor whenever a newcomer passed by. On hearing this, I refused his laundry. He was obliged to turn and take his filthy grimace and clothes back home.

 

Despite this upset, I began to feel more comfortable in the neighbourhood. I was served courteously at the corner shop and people who had seen me before no longer stared in the street but nodded politely or said hello. I was even invited into a few kitchens for cups of their sugared, milky tea.

 

Unfortunately the day came when any neighbourliness on their part came to count for very little. One Monday morning, as I was scrubbing some collars at the sink, I heard the baby begin to cry. I stepped outside and noticed the gate was wide open. I quickly lifted her from the pram to check whether she was alright. She was, but dripping from her cheeks was an unmistakable, spumous, white liquid.

 

Oh how we wept, my husband and I. And as the pale day faded and evening drew on, his face began to shine with deep, black indignation. Through gritted teeth he read from the Psalms: ‘O daughter of Babylon, who art to be destroyed; happy shall he be, that rewardeth thee as thou hast served us. Happy shall he be, that taketh and dasheth thy little ones against the stones.'

Lena Merman

Preston, Lancashire

 

 

 

Birthday Boy

 

Zane got up early, woke his mother and opened his cards and presents. Before leaving for school he asked, ‘Am I still having a birthday party?’ ‘Of course,’ she said, and kissed him.

 

Deansy dragged himself out of bed and walked to school rather than drive. By the time he arrived he was gasping for a drink. He drained a glass of cold water before making himself a strong, black coffee. The Head caught Deansy in the corridor and politely reminded him that his reports were overdue and that the progress data he had handed in didn’t correlate and would he do it again, thank you. Escaping to the classroom, Deansy hunted out the paracetamols in his desk drawer.

 

Zane was very happy to be seven years old. His over-excitement spilled over into uncharacteristic behaviour. His misdemeanours included squeaking his armpits, flicking counters in maths, whistling in assembly and hand wrestling a friend during prayers. Deansy scolded him several times.

 

By lunchtime Deansy’s head thumped. The little sods had run him ragged. They always do when you’re tender, he reflected. Back in the staffroom he absorbed more coffee and ignored his cheese sandwich. The Deputy gently warned him that she would be popping in tomorrow to observe his English lesson. Then he was called out to break up a fight between some his boys, one being Zane Williams; something to do with a rescinded invite to  Zane’s birthday party. After this, Deansy went straight to the men’s room and hid in the lavvy, like he often did after a mid-week bender. Just before the bell, he was accosted in the hall by the Maths Lead, who quietly asked whether he’d remembered the moderation meeting after school. He hadn’t.

 

Once the afternoon session got started it didn’t take long for Zane to stop licking his wounds and resume annoying Deansy. Firstly, he glued pictures of animals onto his own cheeks instead of into his book and next cut a piece of his own hair. But the crunch came when he held his finger under the sink tap and wet several of his classmates and his teacher.

 

Deansy took Zane into the cloakroom and eye-balled him. Zane respectfully held his stare, but the tears came as he was reminded about all the crimes he had committed that day and how disappointed, how really disappointed, his teacher was. When Zane returned red-faced into the classroom, he was comforted by his friends, who put their arms around him.

 

Once the kids had left for home, Deansy immediately returned to the men’s room. He ran the tap and splashed his face several times before drying it with some paper towels. Looking into the mirror, he saw his strained eyes staring back at him. The water hadn’t washed anything away. His head still hurt and he heaved a sigh about all the endless, bloody endless, work crap.  Worse though, was the feeling that he had made a little boy cry on his birthday. Shit.

 

Geoff Tracey

Otterburn, Northumbria

 

Tidal

 

‘Where next, fella?’ asked the companion. Marcus had no idea, and it quickly became apparent that both had mistaken each other for the local guide, who for some reason hadn’t shown. Way out on the flats, the ancient path had melted away and the tide had begun to turn. Some standing gulls watched the men from a close distance, displaying wide, fatalistic eyes. Marcus had the sinking feeling they were dead men walking. The panic that rose in his body threatened to drown all his senses in a single wave.

 

The two walkers had met each other at dawn on The Stairs and had strolled out together without barely a word, onto the hazy, tidal world of oozing mud and bubbling creeks. Both thought each other a backwater kind; the silent type who make you wait to be spoken to. But the guide had probably stayed in bed, accepting no one would be so rash as to traipse out onto the Old Way in such a mist. He had been wrong, of course, and here they were. Oh God, for a guide now!

 

Before Marcus could even begin to think straight, his companion was trudging back the way they’d come. Marcus was about to follow but stopped himself. A retreat was out of the question; the sea would cut them off long before they hit land. Stop! Stop! He called several times but to no avail. Abandoned, he would have to make it to the island alone.

 

Marcus spent five long minutes agonising about which direction to follow, before deciding on the one that seemed to point towards the lighthouse. He made a conscious decision not to run, but to pace patiently between the treacherous mud. To hold his nerve like this took all the discipline he could muster. Unfortunately, the further he walked the less sure he was of his passage; the crystalline light made everything indistinguishable. Morning’s mist had cleared but sunlight prismed the mirrored land. Fields of diamonds filled his disorientated vision. Sand became mud became water became sand. Marcus walked an inundated, illusionary route; his footprints disappeared beneath his tread as quickly as he made them.

 

Eventually, he came on something tangible, a copper-nailed fish kettle. To his horror, he noticed that its open mouth was gaping straight at him and that the island was therefore behind and not in front of him. In his hallucinatory state he had marched towards the sea rather than away from it. At the moment of his realisation, two gulls sailed low overhead, seemingly the size of gods and laughing as they passed.

 

Marcus threw all caution aside; adrenalin took over. He turned and ran into the Black Ground; but fifteen minutes later the tide, which runs faster than any man can, was already lapping at his mud-caked ankles.

 

On shore, the guide walked into his garden with a cup of tea; placidly staring out at the high birds and the returning sea, as he had countless times before.

 

john e.c.

Hull,  East Yorkshire

 

 

Dancing Dog, Fighting Boy

Grandfather was master to us both; a stray dog and an orphan. He trained us together, in the same style.

 

He kept the dog outside, in all weathers, on a short leash. With a cane, he taught it to dance on its hind legs. Once, when the dog showed its teeth, Grandfather pulled its canines. On family occasions, the dog would dance for everyone as they clapped and clapped. Cousin Gristog was always enthralled. He had the dog on its feet, time and time again. Gristog had better teeth than the dog in those days.

 

I was taught to fight. Grandfather sparred with me on his knees and said this made it fair. I was pinched, poked and slapped into toughness. When I managed to catch him on the face he thumped me back much harder. A bail of straw was hung in the abattoir and I was encouraged to pummel it until my fists turned red. I was taken to Varkgoreg’s farm and Grandfather would laugh as I overpowered one of the sons, even if it meant losing a tooth.

If I lost he took me home and beat me some more.

 

When, thank God, he died of some well-earned terminal disease, I took steps to free myself and the dog from his influence.

 

I untied the dog and, with Grandmother’s permission, brought it inside. It tasted meat for the first time and it slept on the end my bed. I walked it by the lake and we swam together in the cool, clean water.

 

After school I would go to Varkgoreg’s farm and, instead of fighting, the boys and I would go into the woods to climb trees, build dens and light fires. The dog chased rabbits and sniffed a thousand smells. Laikailm taught me the bird names and Natoilan showed me where to find wild herbs, which I collected and put into Grandmother’s soups.

 

One night the boys came home with me and we took down the straw bail and set fire to it in the yard. We kept the blaze going for ages with any old wooden things we could find, like Grandfather’s collection of clubs and canes. The dog barked at the bonfire, as if it was some fiery beast, and we danced around it, laughing like boys do. That was in the summer before the holiday; before the family came to visit again.

 

I was up in the woods when they arrived but, as I strolled down the lane on my way home, the first thing I heard coming from the yard was clap, clap, clap. Then, as I clambered over the gate, there was the dog, dancing in the middle of their circle; taunted with a stick by cousin Gristog. Its tongue was lolling; stranded saliva was dripping from it chin; and all sense of sight was absent in its wild eyes.

 

At that instant, I too lost all vision, and began removing Gristog’s teeth with my well drilled knuckles.

 

The Baron Aargh!

Newcastle, England

 

Mourning Lorraine

 

The remains of a life. Mostly eaten by the sea, I was washed ashore at Danes Dyke. Apparently, I am a female in my forties, and the only distinguishable features remaining are my red hair and a wing, part of a bird tattoo that once spread across my back. The coroner confirmed my death was consistent with a fall from a great height; hence the loss of a wing, I suppose. No one has reported me missing. This means I have no name. So, I am both faceless and nameless. I am just another public health burial, one of thousands each year. Who will care to mourn for me; I who am unknown to the world?

 

We are your mourners. We read of your arrival in the Bridlington Echo. A Facebook events page was set up to ask for donations and to invite people to the funeral; and so here we are. I am Petra, who has lived alone these past ten years; it is I who gave over my house for your wake. You are most welcome. I am Terrance, the stone mason, who has provided you with a headstone. I carved it in my own time, in the usual solitary hours. It has been a pleasure. And I am Francine, who has created the spray of flowers for your coffin. I love flowers. I made the bouquet for my own wedding, all those years ago. It has been a delight.

 

Simon the civil celebrant leads us through poetry, prayer and song. The chapel organ plays and our voices raise you up in unison. And here comes Stella, the eulogist from the souvenir shop -not much of a job, but better than climbing the four walls in the home.

 

‘You may think we never noticed you, but we did. Forgive us, but we often averted our eyes when we passed the benches you sat on. We ignored you in cafes, libraries and when you were at your lowest, in the town doorways. Passing you on the street a hundred times and not even stopping to say, ‘Are you okay. Can we help in anyway?’ Your shock of red hair enflamed our sensibilities and we caged your tattooed bird in our small minds. And so, whether we are with or without a religion, we repent and mourn not just your passing, but your pain.’

 

We are the brothers from Hargreaves: Signs and Engraving. We come to give you your name. From this day onward you will be remembered as Lorraine. Everyone thinks that’s a good choice and it is agreed.

 

I thank you for my name. Lorraine, I am called Lorraine. Carve it on my headstone if you get the time, Terrance. And thank you everyone for the wake, the flowers, verse and song. Stella, you were right; everyone passed me by; everyone. But at least you are here today; that’s better than nothing. Now I sing like a bird; mourned at last and known to the world.

 

Beryl From The Block

Thwing, East Yorkshire

Kreutzer Evening

 

Returning from the café bar during the interval, Bedad took her seat near the back of the auditorium. The hall was more empty than full. People were dispersed here and there, mostly in couples or alone. There was little conversation, except from the crowd of students belonging to the university’s music department seated somewhere behind her.

Bedad took out the programme again and began to read. Next up was the Kreutzer Sonata by Janáček. She read that Janáček was motivated to write the piece by Tolstoy’s story of the same name. As he wrote the four movements, the composer tried to imagine the despairing, tormented and tragically murdered woman of the novella. Sit back and wait for the laughs, she thought.

 

In the lull before the musicians returned she spotted three familiar, solitary faces. There was Mrs Newbury, the receptionist from the surgery. Bedad had belonged to the practice for years but had not, in all that time, spoken to her other than on medical matters, usually to beg an appointment. A woman, she presumed, who had many acquaintances but no friends. And there was Mr Dulor, her old French teacher, a widower now. Bedad had re-introduced herself at the last event, but he obviously had no idea who she was. Situated on the front row, she saw the pink lady from the home on the avenue, ignored by the people on either side of her. She got everywhere that one, but was always alone; quite alone.

 

Bedad returned to the programme and discovered that not only was Janáček stirred by Tolstoy, but that the great writer was inspired in his own time by Beethoven’s Violin Sonata No.9, also known as the Kreutzer Sonata. Beethoven’s piece derived its name from its dedicatee, a French violin virtuoso called Rudolphe Kreutzer. Kreutzer never performed the piece as he thought it unplayable. Not much of a virtuoso then, she supposed.

 

There was little to hush as the quartet came back onto the stage. Polite clapping ensued as they seated themselves. Bedad re-examined them one at a time. Foppish violin, fidgety violin, haughty viola and the handsome young cellist with big, strong hands. There had been little chemistry between them in the first half and she wondered if any of them were friends or merely had a professional relationship. She would befriend the cellist, anytime. Who wouldn’t?

 

Just before the music began, Bedad suddenly had a thought about Janáček, Tolstoy and Beethoven. Did they ever meet or at least correspond? With a little effort, she answered her own question. Tolstoy and Beethoven, impossible. Tolstoy and Janáček, probably not. No, not a chance; Czech, Russian, politics etcetera. And then, for some reason, she thought of her husband, at home watching football on the telly. Mr Conversation himself. Like talking to a brick wall.

 

At that moment she became conscious of the empty seats beside her. But, as the music began, Bedad and the scattered audience turned in their quietude to face The Kreutzer.

 

Magaret Sprauge de Camp

Conisbrough, South Yorkshire

 

 

Gilbert And Sullivan

 

He played the Mikado, fondled the three little maids behind the sign for Titipu.

 

Yum Yum bore him twins, never told.

 

Now he lies bedridden, the attendants deaf to his buzzing.

 

Twin one eventually appears, then twin two.

 

Querulous like Katisha, he is on their Koko list.

 

On the radio Nanki Poo outlines his vocal repertoire.

 

They castigate him for soiling the bed and his useless member hangs limp in shame.

 

They do not know he is their father, nor he they are his daughters.

 

Cruelty has come full circle.

 

His object sublime.

 

And truly the punishment fits the crime.

 

Perstimmons

Huddersfield, West Yorkshire

 

The White Balls

I was thrown out of The Crown on Sunday. The landlord marched me out into the street, but not before he’d wrestled the white ball out of my hands. He shouted some expletives and mentioned something about never wanting to see my stupid, moronic face in the pub ever again. What he didn’t realise was that I already had another white ball in my pocket. Another successful rescue mission, though it hurts me to think of the white ball I had to leave behind.

So many pubs and so many souls to save. It’s become my main focus in life. As soon as I see a white ball getting picked on, punished again, my blood rushes and I’m forced to act. I just grab and go.

 

Last week I rescued ten white balls without much danger involved. In The Gardener’s Arms two toughies in work clothes chased me into the toilets and one of them bit my fingers. Ouch! In the Blue Bell a forty a day bloke had my neck pinned against the fruit machine with his pool cue. That’s why I had to kick him in the balls, although I am a pacifist at heart. In the Marquis of Granby a big lass called Sheryl tripped me up and then sat on me. I knew she was called Sheryl because that’s what all her lady friends were shouting. Go on Sheryl this and go on Sheryl that. These were the same ladies who poured their drinks on my head.

I’m now barred from entering most drinking establishments in town. I’ve become quite famous. Infamous, even. In fact, bit of a legend. I get called many names but one has stuck: White Ball Wanker. As the barman at the St.John’s yelled at me on Wednesday afternoon, ‘Not today, White Ball Wanker. Out you go, shit head!’ I was called many names by the big lads at school, like ‘Puker Pat, ‘Slick Skin’ or ‘Sperminator Stephens’ but that was them just being cruel as usual. ‘White Ball Wanker’ actually means something. It recognizes the service I am doing for the oppressed, the constantly beaten white balls. ‘Shit head’ isn’t very pleasant though, I must say.

I keep the balls under my bed. All cleaned and polished in old shoe boxes with soft tissue. You might think they all look the same but no, they come in many different sizes and shades of white. They are all individuals. I have eleven boxes but there is room for more. Some I have given names to like Justin, Fabian and Blandina.

When PC Lyons came round to warn me about my behaviour and that it was getting out of hand and that it might land me in court again, I promised to stop going around the town pubs. And I will. But there is out of town, of course. Look out The Plough, The Fox and Hounds and The Harvesters’ Arms!  Here come I, the White Ball Wanker!

Theo Curtz

Castleford, West Yorkshire

The Shining Kids

 

Okay, I’m obsessed. I’ve seen The Shining one hundred and thirty-seven times and a half. Mother once screamed, just as Jack was turning, so I put the movie on pause and went upstairs to calm her, but when I got back down I realised it had been over an hour, so I watched the movie again from the start. Marv invented the one hour rule. Marv is my best friend. We’ve met each other five times at the clinic and text each other all the time but not on Fridays, that’s another one of his rules. That was on July 24th this year, which is only four days before Kubrick’s birthdate. He directed The Shining but is actually dead now. He died of Myocardial infarction which is a heart attack. I checked that out on Wikipedia which is on the Internet and can tell you most anything you’ll ever need to know.

Marv has watched The Shining even more times than me. Two hundred and sixteen and three-quarter viewings. It upsets Marv a lot that he hasn’t got a rounded number. It happened on Halloween last year when some idiots were banging on his window and shouting, ‘Come out freak! Come out freak!’ Marv chased them around the block and then had an asthma attack. That took over an hour so he had to begin the movie again. In the movie, Jack chases Danny around the maze in the snow with the intention of murdering him, but Danny escapes and Jack dies, probably of hypothermia, not hyperthermia, which is sort of the opposite. Check it out on Wikipedia.

Marv has this theory about the maze. He says it represents the labyrinth in the Greek myth of Theseus and the Minotaur, and that Jack clearly looks just like a Minotaur should. And all this is somehow linked to Stanley filming the faked moon landings. Stanley was Kubrick’s first name and mother says Marv talks utter, total crap.

Marv says he got these ideas from a documentary called Room 237 which is all about The Shining and what it really means. He has watched the documentary fifty-six times without interruptions. I have only watched it nineteen times because I don’t care for it too much. I mean, Jack looks like the Minotaur in all his movies and, more importantly, the moon landings really did take place. For instance, in Kubrick’s 2001: A space Odyssey [161 minutes premier, 142 minutes theatrical] the monolith is actually discovered on the moon by humans and it hurts their ears.  Even though the last part of the movie is so weird, I have watched 2001: A Space Odyssey eighty-nine times all the way through, but I prefer The Shining because it has Shelley Duvall in it, who is my favorite woman. Her other name is Wendy Torrance and she is married to Jack Torrance and is Danny’s mother. She really cares for Danny. She is not like my mother who is more like Jack.

Bella Burgos

Pawtucket, Rhode Island, USA

 

 

 

Lord Of The Dogflies

The dog has been a faithful hound but is a barker, especially at night. It will not shut up even when beaten. Yap, yap, yap! So, one morning in June, Redever takes the dog into the woods just behind the farmhouse and shoots it. With his boots, he rolls the dog over into a patch of nettles and goes home for his bacon. When his wife asks him where the dog is, he simply mutters, ‘Got shut!’

In the weeks that follow, the dog begins to rot quite rapidly. Bluebottles soon arrive and lay their eggs. In not many weeks the maggots have eaten the inside of the carcass clean. Retiring to pupate, they soon emerge on the wing.

Some fly skyward, only to be eaten by swallows and swifts. Others, attracted by the pungency of the pond, feed the frogs and newts. More than a few find themselves decapitated by devouring wasps. The body count is high but many survive to mate and lay eggs in decomposing flesh and vegetable matter. July is hot, nectar abundant and the flies go forth and multiply and multiply.

Legions of bluebottles follow the pheromone trails to the farmyard. A neglected barn provides them with rich pickings: remnants of animal droppings, debris in the corners of feeding troughs, wet bedding and damp hay beneath mangers. Manure piled high near the side of the farmhouse bring them closer to the kitchen. As do the corpses of poisoned rats putrefying in the gutters.

Once inside the house the flies take advantage of the uncovered food. They lay eggs on joints of cooked hams and chicken fillets. Contaminating half-eaten sandwiches with pathogens from the oesophagus, the flies transmit bacteria living inside their digestive systems onto the remnants of cheese. Bluebottle eggs and faeces are the coating to the human diet. But what bothers Redever and his wife the most is the threat posed to their peace.

How can any farmer take his afternoon nap or watch ‘Countryfile’ on the telly with flies dive-bombing here, there and everywhere? And how can a farmer’s wife expect to enjoy her morning cocktails and evening gins with those bloody things taking off and landing like its bleedin’ Humberside airport?

They decide to get shut. Reverting to tried and trusted methods, they make vinegar traps using old whiskey bottles and scatter camphor and orange peel around the house, but the flies keep coming. Sometimes Redever drags himself off his armchair and begins swatting them with yellowed editions of ‘Farmers Weekly’ or ‘The Smallholder’. This is exhausting work and he quickly has to lie down.

Even in the bedroom there is no escape. At night they close the door and windows, clobber any unwelcomed visitors and try to sleep, but it is now August and mafting. Even when Redever manages to drift off, he sweats profusely, thrashes about and is constantly woken by nightmares of flies with dogs’ heads, barking and buzzing, barking and buzzing. ‘Get shut!’ he wakes to cry.

john e.c.

Hull, East Yorkshire

 

 

 

Into The Desert

She unties the rope from around the cloth bag and out spills the desert onto the classroom floor. Shaping the sand with her hands, she becomes the architect of a dry, barren landscape. They are told it is a shifting, dangerous place where death can easily follow thirst. The circle of sitting children lean in. Fix their searching eyes on a million grains of sand. Her voice is a soft breeze and they are the still desert rocks its solitary breath blows around.

Out come her props. The cities of Ur and Haran are unpolished wooden cubes. Two pieces of yarn, one blue and one white, make The Euphrates. Sarai and Abram are small, faceless figures, carved as though from the sand-blasted oaks of Mamre. Three pebbles each mark the altars made by Abram at Shechem and Bethel. The presence of God is her two hands held together directly over Sarai and Abram. He comes nearer than they might have imagined. He does this in several places and she makes it clear to the seven year olds, that wherever Sarai and Abram are in the desert, God is there also. Some children look up at the ceiling, noticing for the first time its white tiles.

Eventually the classroom disappears. There is no world outside the circle of bottoms on the floor. All eyes and ears are in Hebron, tuned to the laughter of Abraham and Sarah, who have had their names changed. God has told them they will have a great family, the members of which will be as many as there are stars in the sky and grains of sand in the desert. They laugh disbelievingly at having children so late in life but then a son is born whom they call Isaac and Isaac means laughter. But then Sarah dies and is buried near trees, in a cave outside Hebron. Abraham dies too, after helping Isaac find a wife. He is buried with Sarah. He was full of years, she explains, then pauses the story. She allows death the time to drift slowly across the endless horizon. Some children stare at the floor. Most avoid eye contact with each other. Several gaze into the desert, wondering what God will make happen next.

She tells the children that Isaac married someone called Rebekah. They had children and their children had children, and this went on for thousands of years until their mothers and fathers had them. She scoops up a handful of sand and gently lets it trickle through her fingers back down onto the desert floor. In the quietest voice possible, she tells them that they are all part of that great family which has become as many as the stars in the sky and the grains of sand in the desert; just as God had promised Abraham and Sarah all those years ago.

When she stops speaking, speechlessness reigns. Not a murmur. Thousands of years of silence, deafening in the ears of the young.

Germaine Mansfield

Pardoo, Western Australia

 

 

 

House Of The Brothers

The alarm rings at five o’clock. Before breakfast they wash because cleanliness is next to Godliness. They do not shave this morning. Today is Tuesday and they do not shave on a Tuesday. The brothers dress identically: black shoes, trousers and tie; white underpants, vest and shirt; grey socks and pullover. Bernard has one slice of bread and butter and tea without milk or sugar. Anthony has the same. Anthony washes the plates and knives and Bernard dries them with the tea towel. Bernard opens the cupboard and Anthony puts everything away.

This morning they have several tasks to complete. Firstly, they check all the mail that has arrived in the previous seven days. They take turns in reading the details of a bank statement, a gas bill, a leaflet from Oxfam and a notice about a change in bin collection days. Secondly, they assess the weekly grocery list: white bread, butter, tea, eggs, salt, cheese, potatoes, carrots and a turnip. They have a surplus of fifteen tea bags and so tea is crossed off the list. There is also a sock to mend. Anthony threads the needle and spreads the sock which Bernard sows.

When this is complete they sit in silence in the front room. Above the fireplace is mother’s sampler, which reads, ‘The Greatest Foe To Any Army Is Indiscipline.’ Father’s photograph watches them from the mantelpiece. Together with his medals and drill cane, these artefacts help the brothers to focus their minds in their hour of meditation

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For lunch Bernard has a boiled egg with salt. Anthony has the same and they share one slice of toast with butter. The only time they speak is to say ‘please’ or ‘thank you’. They always use manners because manners maketh the man.

In the afternoon they continue their labours. Today is Tuesday and this is the day when they dust and polish their parents’ bedroom. The bedding is changed. Bernard strips the pillows and Anthony the sheets. Together they remake the bed in the reverse order. Another of father’s photographs on the bedside table is turned inwards, as if to inspect their efforts.

After re-setting the mouse traps, ironing towels, polishing shoes and preparing the soup, they retire to continue their daily study. Father’s collection of Oxford World’s Classics fill an entire bookcase in the back room. They each put on their spectacles and pull out ‘Great Expectations’. Bernard reads a page and then its Anthony’s turn. The appearance of Abel Magwitch brings knowing glances from the brothers.

At supper they allow themselves a rare treat. They have pepper with the soup. So as not to over indulge, Bernard sprinkles the pepper sparingly onto Anthony’s soup and visa-versa.

After washing again they prepare themselves for bed. In identical pyjamas they kneel by their beds and say in unison the family prayer. The alarm clock is set for five o’clock. It is still light behind the curtains but early to bed is early to rise.

Geoff Tracey

Otterburn, Northumbria

 

 

 

The Photograph

 

The quiet of an empty house. The ticking of a clock from another room. Fine grains of dust suspended in a single shaft of sunlight. A photograph on the mantelpiece. A man, wife and three daughters. Moustache, petticoats and brooches. Captured in their Sunday best. Scrubbed to an inch of their lives.

The youngest daughter leaps out of the photograph and onto the mantelpiece. Jumps down onto the hearth, bounces across the room and heads out of the house through the scullery door. Outside the yard are other children. There’s Walt and Gertie, Rosie and Beryl. And also Peter, sitting atop the wall. You took your time, he says. I’m here now, though, she says. What shall we play? They play leapfrog, hopscotch and marbles. And after skipping its hide and seek. Peter hides himself well. She looks and looks, even when the others give up, but cannot find him.

The middle daughter squeezes past her mother and elder sister. Steps wearily into the parlour. Sits herself on father’s armchair. It’s not allowed, but he’s not around to scold her. How should she occupy her time? Maybe the needlework; a sampler with a garland of roses, carnations and violets. Reading perhaps: ‘Three Weeks’ by Elinor Glyn. Or a diary entry, but about what? Waiting? If only he would come, and soon. Hoping against hope that all that talk of signing up on Station Road is bluff. When the rat-a-tat-tat comes she leaps expectantly to the door, but it is only boys playing Knocking Down Ginger. She stands on the step, staring up the street empty of men.

Mother and eldest daughter slowly make their way out of the photograph. They turn to look forlornly at father; closely examining the only image of him left to them. Never did he look more handsome than on that day in August when they visited the studio in town and later went for a last picnic by The Nidd. Immaculate in that uniformed pride. They brew up some tea and, when Celia makes herself scarce, they open the bureau and bring out his letters. Re-read them once more. His hand having become increasingly less steady. The last one over a month ago. Gallipoli, where was that? Could have been on the moon, for all they knew. They had taken down the encyclopaedias to find out. Now they hold hands across the table. What shall we pray for, mother? Another letter from your father, she says.

Father refuses to move from his position in the photograph. Is more than happy to remain in the past. The last man standing on that last beautiful afternoon. Unblinking, his camera eyes focus straight ahead into the future: bayonet charges, hopping bullets, heavy shrapnel, Bert and Frank identifiable only by their name discs, makeshift crosses and leave cancelled indefinitely. And then he widens his eyes still further, for somewhere, beyond the blur of cordite, flying earth and smoke is a Turkish sniper framing another kind of shot.

Thelma Littler

 

Witheridge, Devon

 

 

 

The Migrants

 

She leaves him one Friday morning whilst he’s at work. Carrying her life in a handbag and a small suitcase, she catches the number 37 bus outside the labour exchange. Up it rattles along the north road. Meets her sister in Barnsley. He comes home drunk from The Empire and collapses into bed. Doesn’t realise she is gone until Saturday lunchtime when he calls for his mug of tea.

She lives with her sister and husband for a short while until his grumblings force her out. Lodges with a landlady who takes every opportunity to look down her nose. Gets a job in the canteen at a factory and goes dancing with the girls at the weekend. Arnold has quick feet and a regular income. Seventeen years and three kids later they are still wed. He doesn’t drink but she wishes he sometimes would. Arnold and the eldest son battle endlessly for supremacy. The boy leaves home on his sixteenth birthday. Tells them there is a job for him in Leeds.

Spending his days servicing Triumph, Norton and BSA bikes and bragging of greasing his hands with the girls in the office. He settles on Eileen, who won’t let go, now that he’s come sniffing.  Renting a back-to-back in Harehills, the remnant of their wages go on the horses, football coupons, cigs and beer. They happily settle into weekends of screaming matches after nights out at the Pig and Whistle. He takes off in anger late one Saturday night on a borrowed T90 and ends up under a lorry on Roundhay Road. After the funeral, she goes home to Middlesbrough with her parents, and remains there once the twins are born.

They are the first in the family to be called Karen and Jaqueline. Karen is the eldest by six minutes and is the stronger of the two. She fights for her sister in the playground and keeps on fighting into adult life. One husband down, then another, before controlling the third. His compo from ICI, along with income support, bring in the necessary dosh. Fags, food on the table, clothes for the kids and days out in Redcar.

Two generations pass on the same street. Then the government gets tough. Gives a family one benefit whilst taking back another. Curtis finds himself out on his ear. A cousin in Whitby offers him some seasonal work at the Dracula Experience. Once there, he takes a shine to his cousin’s girlfriend. They obsess on Face Time. Vape together whenever there’s a chance. Come October, they elope to her dad’s house in Hull. Hibernate for the winter down Holderness Road. Her dad is ex-KR and stares at Curtis a lot. April comes and he’s on the road again. This time alone. He has relatives in South Yorkshire whom he remembers from weddings and funerals. Seemed like good sorts. Decides to try them out.

Curtis hitches a lift near to Wakefield then another into Barnsley. Catches the number 37 heading south.

Craig Sumner

Middlesbrough, Teeside

Three Daughters, Three Gifts

The prodigal, nightmare daughter all parents dread, that’s me. Lipstick, lads and late nights out. And yes, the attitude. Defeated, Father side-stepped me like a zoo keeper might a caged lion. He thought it best to communicate through Mother, whose nerves I devoured, lion-like. I gave her what I could: ignoring curfews, starvation diets, dropping out of sixth-form, leaving my bedroom in a permanent filthy state, despite her best efforts. Oh and the fags and drugs, of course. Casting her out of my Garden of Eden, I un-friended her on Facebook. Voila! However, on the day I left for the squat she was still there with advice I didn’t want to hear, hugs I could barely stand, and tears I nearly laughed at. The gift? An envelope stuffed with pathetic origami birds. Tiny, self-made. Disgusted, I threw them out of my new window the same afternoon. Three years later, I found the crumpled survivor in an inside pocket which guided my flight back home. 

 

I am the daughter who stayed at home and hid in her bedroom, dreaming her young life away. Videos and more videos. Replaying ‘Ghost’ a hundred times and wishing I could replace the spectral kiss given to Demi Moore with my own living lips.  Imagining again and again our calm, interlocking fingers upon the spinning potter’s clay. Hand in hand, crafting something close to perfection.  My first real crush was on Eva, a student babysitter. Cuddled together, she read us ‘The Secret Garden’ in her soft, polished voice. But she betrayed my secret letter and gave it to Father. Eva was replaced by Mrs Baines and Father stayed in full denial for years, even until the day I came out with Maisy by my side. As usual, Mother evaded his silence and presented us with a pair of homespun friendship bracelets. I’ve had them ready for a while, she said. In a steady hand she’d carved our names in the wood. Mine and Maisy’s. Dearest, lovely Maisy.

 

Fearing a repeat of my sisters’ debauched adolescence, I was encouraged to attend Sunday school at Our Lady of Sorrows. A little bit of God might just keep me from the devil’s door was Father’s thinking. However, he never reckoned on my fervour. Not for me the nominal, half-hearted response to Faith. No, mine was filled with contrition, confession, prayer and devotion. At sixteen I secretly named myself Chastity and what my sisters wasted on their lust, I gave to Christ. Body, heart and soul. My Father gave me up as a lost cause, as the lapsed are apt to do. Sarcastically, he told me I should pray a novena to St. Jude, Patron Saint of Hopeless Cases. Of course, Mother came in from a different angle. From some of her old necklaces she created a rainbow rosary, which she gave to me for my confirmation. Holy Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Jools Belfitt

Langho, Lancashire

 

Twinned

 

Fir, aspen, cedar, ash;

Forget-me-not static caravans.

‘It’s a nice community. Like the old days.’

‘Everyone knows everyone. We often have day trips together. Twice a year, there is a coach holiday. Can’t remember them on one, though.’

‘Their blinds were always closed. Even on a sunny day like this.’

Toothbrushes, toothpaste? Check.

Flannel, soap? Check.

Mother? Check.

Father? Check.

‘I made a point of saying hello but nothing came back.

It was like talking to yourself.’

‘They shopped in the evening. Walked into town and back.

Five miles each way! Never caught the bus.’

‘Me and the Serg were gobsmacked. Like stepping back in time.

No telly, a wireless, two chairs and passports from the 1970s with blue covers.’

Family snap: Chester 1968. That’s you with Dad.

No, I think it’s you. Look, short trousers.

True. Tuck it in the rucksack behind my tablets, will you?

‘All four were beautiful. Looked like each other. Small people, tiny.

He was a heart throb at school. A miniature David Cassidy.

She was gorgeous. Thirteen going on eighteen. Big eyelashes.’

Ankylosing spondylitis. Incapacity benefits reassessed.

‘I prescribed anti-depressants but they wouldn’t take them.

Recommended Citizen’s Advice for their money problems.

Don’t know if they went.’

‘Close, very close. I wasn’t surprised they never had a boyfriend or girlfriend.

Their mother was their life. It’s been two years now, I think.’

Door locked? Yes. Could go tomorrow.

No, it’s not so bad at the mo. Let’s go.

London: £200 withdrawn on Euston Road.

Receipt for paracetamols and plasters from Boots.

Two single tickets to Dover, please.

Boxing Day: beer, brandy and & 7 Up from a corner shop.

No hotel records. CCTV: use of public toilets.

Sleeping where, how? Back to back, on a bench, beneath a bush?

‘The weather that day was variable. Sun, wind, rain; the lot.’

I wonder which one of us took this one?

They loved the Waltzer.

Not us though!

No, too fast!

‘Perhaps they were taking their parents for a Christmas walk? Perhaps.’

‘Suicide, that was the first thing out of my lips, wasn’t it Bill?’

‘Well, I don’t think they came to Dover to take their lives.

The cliffs are notorious there. I think they fell.’

Hold tight now, hold tight!

I am. Your hands are cold. Stop, let me rub them warm.

Thank you.

National Trust Centre signs: ‘What brings you here today?’ and ‘Why are the white cliffs so special?’

This is the highest point. Stay close everyone. Stay close.

Bodies discovered on New Year’s Day.

Open verdict:

‘I just have to present the facts, what we know, the evidence.

The evidence does not disclose to the required standard of proof

whether there was an intention by them to take their own lives

or if it was indeed simply a tragic accident.’

Cremation: 21st April, Folkestone, Kent.

Publicly funded. Only strangers in attendance.

Four sets of ashes in the garden of remembrance.

 

In the UK, Samaritans can be contacted free on 116 123

 

Melvin Franks

Dymchurch, Kent

 

Scratch, Scratch, Scratch

I was relentlessly teased at work about my face. All the techies in the lab were at it. It was get rid of that cat or stop beating the bishop in the brambles, that sort of stuff. Couldn’t blame them though, there was hardly a day went past when I didn’t have another scratch or two to add to my collection.

Timmy, one of my weekend gaming mates, put it down to the bedroom ferocity of my partner, Lu.  Once had a girl like that, he said, but with her it was all teeth, not nails. If only, I said. Lu, by the way, did have long, sharp nails. Once a neutral colour, she had begun to paint them yellow or red to match her new hair-do and sports gear.

I became so worried about the scratching that I asked my friend Bradley to set up an infra-red motion camera in the bedroom. Bradley and I spent most weekday evenings building our robot and he was really cool with lenses and the like. Sure enough, there was plenty of footage of me tossing and turning most nights and attacking my face with my own hands. There was also quite a lot of footage of Lu, spending hours tapping away on her phone. Probably Facebook, I thought. I apologised for keeping her awake but she said there was no need, as she was sleeping straight through.

To put a stop to it, I decided to order some anti-scratch mittens, the type that eczema sufferers sometimes resort to. Unfortunately, because of my agitated state, my hands over-heated and repeatedly woke me up. Now I was losing sleep, so I came up with Plan B. I found a pair of handcuffs in the loft, which Lu and I used back in the day. She began to attach me to the head of the bed before leaving the house. It was at this time that she began to go the gym late in the evening. As she explained, all the exercise helped her to relax when I was thrashing around. A no brainer, I agreed. She even had a friend to go with, as I could always hear a car pulling up on the drive. When I asked her what her name was, Lu told me it was Viv.

Thankfully, the scratching stopped, but instead I began kicking and shouting. Lu told me I was always telling myself to wake up. Either ‘Wake up! Wake up!’ or ‘Wake up and see!’ Not only this, but I also ended up kicking Lu hard in the back one evening. That was in May, just about a month before she left me for Vivian.

The work-place psych, Ben, who’s a paint-balling hero, I can tell you, later told me my scratching symptoms were probably a result of my disturbed subconscious expressing its knowledge of Lu’s infidelity. Well, whatever. At least the scratching has stopped and my face is now as smooth as a robot’s.

Dexter Lumley

Saxmundham, Suffolk

Patches On His Jacket

 

My patch reads ‘MALC GATES 1948 – 2011’. You’ll find me just above ‘LOUD PIPES SAVE LIVES’ and left of ‘RIDE IT LIKE YOU STOLE IT’. I first rode with Jed in sixty-nine. A gang of us met up at the lido in Scarborough and headed west. Leeds, Burnley, Wrexham, Porthmadog and hitting the sea at Aberdaron. Jed has an old photo of us on the promenade. Leathers and loose hair, posing with our first bikes; mine a 1968 Norton Commando and he the BSA A10 Golden Flash. That was his first and only real love. He never really got over her. When he wrote her off in seventy-five, somewhere along the Cat and Fiddle, I was among those who helped to mend his broken heart. He rode behind me for a while until his leg and vision got better. I’m talking about Jed because it’s his jacket and that’s where I’m remembered.

 

‘Daz Wright 1951-2013’, that’s me. Right in the middle between ‘BIKESEXUAL’ and ‘DOES THIS BIKE MAKE MY ARSE LOOK FAST?’ I married Gail and Jed married Leslie at the same ceremony at Holy Apostles C of E.. Malc and Babe were the best men, of course. The six of us took our honeymoon along the south coast.  Hastings, Dungeness, Bognor Regis, Poole and so on. Back and forth along those sweet, southern roads, living the dream. Bumped into some old mods in a café in Brighton. Thought we might have to fight our way out. Ended up having a crazy golf competition instead. Great laughs. That was in seventy-three, I think. We both lost the girls somewhere along the road. I mean, divorce and all that. But we kept the bikes and rode on together. All those years, the four of us, until Malc got the Big C. Took his body, the fat git, all the way to Crosskirk Bay in a side car. Burned it at midnight. Yeah, a funeral pyre. Amazing. When I croaked a year later, they just buried my parts in the graveyard. Bastards.

 

Typical, I’m on the bottom. I suppose there wasn’t much space left by the time I spun off this mortal coil. I’m ‘BABE FOLDS 1955-2018’. Yes, in the corner underneath ‘SEE THE WORLD SOONER, NOW’ and ‘BIKERS DON’T GO GREY, THEY TURN CHROME’. I was the youngest in the gang by five months and they never let me forget it. The target for most of their jokes. How would you like ‘Babe’? My real name is Craig. I mean, was. Treat me like shit. Forever taking the piss out of my Yamaha. Just because I moved with the times.  Big bunch of old fogeys. The Wheezy Riders, indeed. Family, though. Brothers. Better than any brother, actually. Have you met our kid? Twat. Anyway, less of the small talk. The bike’s clean, the tank is full and Jed has his jacket on. Tonight the brothers ride! Remember, ‘FOUR WHEELS MOVE THE BODY, TWO WHEELS MOVE THE SOUL’.

Kid Spent

Scarborough, North Yorkshire

Two School Colleagues

When Jack the Head slipped on some ice in the playground one Friday morning and nearly broke his crown on a bike stand, it was left to Greer and Evelyn to sort the situation. Instead of ringing for an ambulance, which would have taken ages to get from Hull Royal, they bundled him into Greer’s car and headed down the treacherous back roads, straight for A&E.

As Greer put her foot to the pedal, Evelyn held Jack steady in the backseat and gave him some TLC. This was as close as the two women had sat in the three years they had worked together. Usually, they kept a cool, diplomatic distance. Evelyn, the deputy, thought Greer a back-biting naysayer with teeth it was hard to look at. And Greer, the English lead, judged Evelyn to be a self-important, grade-A arse licker with a laugh a horse would be ashamed of. Their aversion to each other didn’t go unnoticed. As SENCO Sal enjoyed saying, ‘They wouldn’t warm to each other even in the same coffin.’

They arrived at the hospital only to find Jack’s wife and daughter already waiting. Obviously, the office had rung to inform them. After the fuss, they were thanked for their efforts and then Jack and family disappeared through the double doors with hospital staff. They suddenly found themselves in limbo, together but alone in admissions.

After what seemed like an age, Evelyn asked, ‘Coffee?’ Greer replied, ‘Tea for me, but yes, I’m gagging.’ There was a machine in the corridor and Evelyn was the one with any change. They sat in stillness near a big window. Eventually, Evelyn piped up, ‘D’you think Jack will be alright?’ ‘Course he will,’ replied Greer. ‘Might have knocked some sense into him as well.’ Evelyn smiled. ‘Did you see him slip?’ she asked. ‘Yeah,’ said Greer, ‘went down like a sack of spuds. That stand rang out like the school bell!’ Evelyn laughed this time. Here comes the horse, thought Greer, but considered it a nice laugh when directed at her own attempted humour. They sat a while longer, staring out of the window at the new rain, which was beginning to melt the ice. ‘Is your coffee as shite as my tea?’ asked Greer. ‘Double shite, I should think,’ said Evelyn. ‘Shall we head back?’

The shift in the weather made it an easier drive back to school. Greer felt relaxed at the wheel and Evelyn, as front passenger, saw details in the landscape she hadn’t noticed before. Between them, they struck up a gossipy conversation that wasn’t too mean, but still had bite. The office came under fire for officiousness, as did the Nursery staff, who behaved more like a secret society than even the dinner ladies. Most of their venom, though, was directed at their common enemy, SENCO Sal. Shit stirrer par excellence? Oh yes! This satisfying chatter only stopped when they arrived back at school, but when Monday came it resumed in earnest.

Sally Furness

Cottingham, East Yorkshire

Just Trespassing Through

 

It’s Saturday and he’s promised to go to town with me. I see he’s made an effort, best tweed jacket, newest shoes and all.  Makes a pleasant change to see him in something other than wellies and a boiler suit. He’s even combed his hair, bless him.

We’re in the Rover, just pulling out of the yard when he brings it to a sudden jolt. He mumbles some expletives and mutters something about God giving him strength. Then he’s out of the car and standing there with his legs apart and arms crossed, staring at two men and a small dog walking towards us. His chin is up in the air, just like when he’s lecturing us about socialism this and socialism that.

The two men come closer and give us a cheerful good morning. Unfortunately, they don’t get one back. Winding down my window, I hear him say, in his thickest voice, ‘Do you know this is private land?’ I’ve heard him say this before a number of times. It’s a catchphrase of his, like, ‘You’re talking Corbynite crap’. Before they get the chance to answer he’s off again. ‘This isn’t the estate, y’know.  Every bloody week there’s some of you buggers roaming over this place like you own it! I’m sure you lot don’t know what trespassing means!’ His face has quickly become flushed and his nose, which is always red, is starting to glow. I’ve warned him about the whiskey and his blood pressure, but he won’t have it.

The men don’t seem too bothered about this alpha male display. They slowly turn to each other and grin. One of them says, ‘Fine motor, mister. New model, eh? Y’know, I called my last dog Rover!’ Meanwhile, the little dog begins to have a piddle against the front tyre. He steps back to avoid his brogues getting splashed. The one with the cheekiest grin comes around to my side, gives me eye contact and says, ‘Hello missus. Going anywhere nice?’ I have to smile and tell him, ‘York’. Knowingly, he asks, ‘Lunch at Betty’s, is it?’ I nod and he winks. I notice he has green eyes, a dimple and a good set of teeth.

By this time, tipping point has been reached. All those big hand gestures he’s practised. ‘Do I have to call the police, or are you two charmers going to turn back and leave the way you came?’ Again, they keep their cool, bypass the car and head towards the paddock. Cheeky shouts, ‘999, Old Bean. That’s the number!’ They don’t even turn their heads to see if he’s coming after them, which he isn’t.

Back in the car its bloody chavs this and bloody chavs that and some other choice vocabulary. I look through the mirror and see their strong frames already heading down the lane, the dog’s tail high and erect. Then he crunches the gears and we’re off to York and lunch at Betty’s, bless him.

L. Wagstaff

Pontefract, West Yorkshire

Cathy, Kath, Tim or Tom?

 

My wife Kath works at the hospice and that’s where I met Tom, one of the inmates. I was off sick for some reason. I knew I had to phone Tim at personnel but decided to join Kath for lunch instead. That’s right. She was out but I got talking to Tom about this and that. He liked to chat but I had some difficulty understanding everything he tried to tell me. His speech seemed to be breathy, slow and slurred. Several times I had to ask him to say the same thing again, so he did. He leaned his head close to mine and repeated the words so that my ears buzzed a little.

At home Kath said she was sorry she’d missed me but was interested in what Tom had had to say. Tom at personnel? I asked. No, Tom at the hospice, she said. I said he’d told me about his ex-girlfriend Cathy, his passion for motorbikes and about the crash which had caused his brain injury. Kath said he hadn’t crashed any bike but had thrown himself off the south cliff after his girlfriend had died from cancer. Don’t worry, Kath said, he suffers from dysarthria, you probably misheard him. You’ve done well to understand anything at all. However, I was as sure as I can be that I’d heard him right.

The next day I went back to the hospice following the same route or thereabouts. Cathy, I mean Kath, wasn’t there again, but Tim was. He was eager to tell me all about the bikes he’d owned: Suzukis, Yamahas and Kawasakis. He mentioned some more but I’m not into bikes so I can’t really remember them. I like walking. I’ve walked up lots of hills, y’know. He said he’d raced them all up the north roads, usually with Kath on the back. Then he told me how he’d met the blind corner on the way into Whitby to pick her up and bang, that was that. Where is Kath now? I asked. He said Cathy is living in Liverpool with a Honda freak. Who’d want a cripple like this, eh?

Later, when I told Kath, yes Kath, she smiled and said no, he had definitely jumped off the south cliff and he didn’t mean Liverpool but probably Larpool. Larpool? I asked. Larpool Lane, where she’s buried, Cathy explained. Tom was leading you on, she said. Tom at personnel? I said.

Today is Friday or one of the other days. Earlier, I climbed the steps up to the abbey to see if I could find a headstone with Kath’s name on it, but I only found some old graves. Either Tim or my wife are lying to me. I decided to go to the hospice and confront them but somehow or other I’ve found myself back at home instead. I know, let me make that phone call. Tom at personnel will know. Now where, oh where, is that number?

Kid Spent

Scarborough, North Yorkshire

Adult Uncle

I was heading home when I caught sight of him, turning the corner at St. Mary’s church. I might have waved but he had his head and eyes to the ground. He wasn’t usually the stooping sort, just short. As for his hands, they weren’t at his sides but with the palms facing backwards. And his arms weren’t swinging, even though he was walking at a good pace. His body was rocking between them, like a playground swing. All told, he had the appearance of a little ape man. An ape man with a stub burning between his fingers. I didn’t know he was a smoker until then.

 

I stopped the bike and watched him disappear around the back of Church Street. What was he doing down there? He and Aunty Jean lived up and across the hill near The Comprehensive. We never went there though; Mum wasn’t keen; thought he’d made a mistake. He came to us; Sunday morning, usually.

Curious, I turned the bike around, crossed the main road and peddled slowly after him. I caught up with him on Palmer’s Avenue, heading down to the beck. Still crouched, he took a last drag of the fag and flicked it at a van. I kept a low profile on the road, zig-zagging between the parked cars. I was getting dangerously close and thought I might give up but I sneaked on. Kicking open the gate to the allotments, he made his way through. Daring not to follow him further on the bike, I stopped, dropped to my knees and watched him through the bars. He kept his head straight, pace equal and ignored the geese, the Alsatian and the old man who gave a friendly greeting. Once he’d gotten through I abandoned the bike and made my own way past the animals; nervously, even though they were fenced in. The old man also caught sight of me. ‘Morning Mister. Just catching my uncle up!’ I said. ‘Then teach him some manners, young ‘un!’ he said.

 

By the time I’d passed through, he was standing on the beck-side, picking up pieces of old brick. I quietly crept behind two upright plastic barrels and peeked out. Rising to his full height, he started throwing the missiles across the water at a split hawthorn tree. Each time he lobbed one across he cried, ‘Bitch! Bitch! Bitch!’ I knew the word, we had a mongrel at home called Lady; but I knew he didn’t have dogs in mind.

Of course, I found all this very upsetting. One part of me wanted to quickly run back to my bike, but the other wanted to go over to him and offer kind words and a hug. Uncle was a good one for hugs.  However, I knew I couldn’t do anything for him. I decided to make a move backwards but had no confidence in it. I was stuck. I had gone through the gates and was trapped with this adult, my uncle.

Tyrone Smith

South Elmsall, West Yorkshire

Clive Talkin’

Big Eric told Clive that on no account could he have a rescue dog in his room. But Clive whined for so long that in the end he was sure Eric had stopped saying no.

‘Where’s the dog place?’ Big Eric asked. ‘Bankside.’

‘Bankside, you sure?’ ‘Yeah, near the boats.’

‘Mmm, and how much?’ ‘Free to a good home, they said.’

‘Mmm,’ said Big Eric. Mmm, but not no.

That’s how Pal came to be at the Sanctuary.

Clive had walked from The Centre each evening, crossing Wilmington Bridge and then following the river along Wincomlee onto Bankside. As soon as he neared the mooring the dog would always begin barking and would noisily follow him along the other side of the fence. One night Clive stopped and neared the fence. He called to the dog, “What’s up Pal, eh?” This stopped the dog in its tracks. It came closer, drooped its tail and began whimpering.  “I’m lonely, Clive. I’m the loneliest dog in the world. I’m so, so lonely!” This is what Clive heard and it made him very sad. He walked home with tears in his eyes. The next evening Clive was told the same thing. “I have no one, Clive. No one.” Clive believed him. Clive knew a lot about liars and lying and when he looked into the Pal’s big, moist eyes he knew he was telling the truth.

It only took a couple of days for Clive and Pal to become the closest of friends. It was all conversation to begin with, but then they realised that if Clive reached his arm through the small gap in the fence, and Pal stood on his hind legs with his front paws on some coiled rope, they could have physical contact. Clive was able to stroke Pal’s head and gently scratch behind his ears while Pal licked Clive’s fingers and rubbed his wet nose along his arm.  It was heaven. ‘I’ve waited all my life for this, Clive!’ said Pal. Clive, fully understanding, replied, “Me too Pal, me too!” Clive began to stay with Pal. They talked for hours, usually until it was Pal’s nap time. It wasn’t as if there was anyone waiting up for him back in his room. Sometimes Pal woke up, and finding Clive gone, would howl long and loud. Clive heard him one night before he reached The Sanctuary and howled back, ‘Don’t worry Pal, Clive’s coming!’

The cable shears which Clive had lifted from The Centre did the job nice and quickly. In less than five minutes Clive had made a hole in the fence, big enough for Pal to crawl through. Pal moaned excitedly and spun around and around.  “C’mon Pal, that’s it, out you come!” The dog came eagerly. Clive lifted him up into his arms and sprinted down Bankside. Pal beat his tail and repeatedly licked Clive’s face. ‘Thank you,” said Pal, “thank you so much! I love you!’ ‘Sshhh’, said Clive, ‘they’ll hear you talking.’

Stephen Swiller

Hull, East Yorkshire

Falstaff 37,  England

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